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with everything said and done..i feel alright..
i can't change it, even if i wanted to
everything happens for a reason,
and someday i will know what that is.
but for now, i am okay
and i am content in the fact that i am okay.
i still wonder though, what it would be like
how fucked up everything would be..
i don't deserve this
i don't deserve you
i deserve better....
on a lighter note:
today was all about me and i loved it..i went to the library today..i finished more of my paper..and i relaxed..then i went for coffee and to dan's for some pool..it was very enjoyable...
also i think my car is crazy..lastnight when i dropped emily off my interior lights stayed on for a while...then they went off. i didn't think anything of it until today while my driveway is being plowed my alarm starts to go off for no reason..i turn it off and go back to working on my paper..then i go to venus and my interior lights come on and my alarm comes on and it continues to do that for about and hour or so..then amanda and i head to dan's and it still continues to do it...so i start my car and leave it running for like and hour thinking that it just needs to warm up that the doors aren't shutting all the way and that it why it is going crazy...so i finally turn my car off and it stops...well i am happy, but now that i am home my car does the same fucking thing and my car is running right now with the interior lights on for no reason...hopefully by the time i go to bed it will stop being crazy..so that my battery isn't dead in the morning...cross your fingers...
i can't change it, even if i wanted to
everything happens for a reason,
and someday i will know what that is.
but for now, i am okay
and i am content in the fact that i am okay.
i still wonder though, what it would be like
how fucked up everything would be..
i don't deserve this
i don't deserve you
i deserve better....
on a lighter note:
today was all about me and i loved it..i went to the library today..i finished more of my paper..and i relaxed..then i went for coffee and to dan's for some pool..it was very enjoyable...
also i think my car is crazy..lastnight when i dropped emily off my interior lights stayed on for a while...then they went off. i didn't think anything of it until today while my driveway is being plowed my alarm starts to go off for no reason..i turn it off and go back to working on my paper..then i go to venus and my interior lights come on and my alarm comes on and it continues to do that for about and hour or so..then amanda and i head to dan's and it still continues to do it...so i start my car and leave it running for like and hour thinking that it just needs to warm up that the doors aren't shutting all the way and that it why it is going crazy...so i finally turn my car off and it stops...well i am happy, but now that i am home my car does the same fucking thing and my car is running right now with the interior lights on for no reason...hopefully by the time i go to bed it will stop being crazy..so that my battery isn't dead in the morning...cross your fingers...