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Today I danced.
I mean, I exercised by dancing around in my house... something I use to do. It reminds me of why I love Jon so much. He encourages me to be me...
I got my heart rate up, I could feel it. I was a little tired, but I still danced. I danced to the CD that I always did for Jon. Choirgirl Hotel... I think that's the name. It's been so long. I use to have almost a set routine for some of them, but it's been so long I don't remember.
I do remember the last time I looked like this. The last time I danced like that... it was before I met him... Jon filmed me. We destroyed it afterwards, but I loved the way I looked. I look even better this time around for a number of reasons. My skin is better, my body is better (not due to thin'ness, but for other reasons). I took two self portrait/pictures with my camera. It's a little dark, my friend couldn't see... but I thought I looked pretty.
I'm very healthy looking right now. It does please me... but... I miss someone holding me at night. Still, it's time to figure out me the way I was suppose to before. His life was so miserable, I just kept trying to figure out how to make it work...
I'm meeting someone that I met once long ago... well today. He's coming by the restaurant. He sort of looks like Max, Coffeclutz. :)
I mean, I exercised by dancing around in my house... something I use to do. It reminds me of why I love Jon so much. He encourages me to be me...
I got my heart rate up, I could feel it. I was a little tired, but I still danced. I danced to the CD that I always did for Jon. Choirgirl Hotel... I think that's the name. It's been so long. I use to have almost a set routine for some of them, but it's been so long I don't remember.
I do remember the last time I looked like this. The last time I danced like that... it was before I met him... Jon filmed me. We destroyed it afterwards, but I loved the way I looked. I look even better this time around for a number of reasons. My skin is better, my body is better (not due to thin'ness, but for other reasons). I took two self portrait/pictures with my camera. It's a little dark, my friend couldn't see... but I thought I looked pretty.
I'm very healthy looking right now. It does please me... but... I miss someone holding me at night. Still, it's time to figure out me the way I was suppose to before. His life was so miserable, I just kept trying to figure out how to make it work...
I'm meeting someone that I met once long ago... well today. He's coming by the restaurant. He sort of looks like Max, Coffeclutz. :)