does she know I'm here?

[globesandmaps46]

so it begins
but when will it end
our dreams lay
scattered around our feet
on the grey pavement
when dreams die
we die too
why can't you see this?
I try to make you understand
but you just turn away
again and again
I cry out
I reach for you
but you just walk on by
it kills me each and every time
I refuse to cry
any tears for you
I refuse to let the tears fall
they are concentrated with acid
and will disfigure my face
beyond recognition
what does it matter?
no one recognizes me anyway.
I can't stay here
for too much longer
you see it takes too much
out of me
drains me of everything
we're as different as night and day
you and I are
I am the night
you represent the light
why can't you understand this?
you walk away
and with you you take my heart
and tear it to pieces
I hope you're happy
I hope you're proud of all you've accomplished
in a few short months
you've managed the impossible
to make me fall for you
and then to crush me
with one look in the eye
as you softly lean down
to press your lips to me
your lips are the gun
that deliver the final blow
of what I want but can never
truly have
this is the message you send
over and over again
it's too much to bear
so much to take
and I sit alone
and the tears begin to fall
I can no longer deny them
I hope you're proud of all you've done
this is it
you've won

amazing what your subconscious will spit out into existance, no? haha this is just interesting to me. mainly because it has a lot of themes to what I'm feeling at the moment. *shrugs*