Frustrated
The title says it all. that's all I am anymore. with Jason. My patience is wavering. quickly. I need to control it, but with him I lose my temper quickly. maybe it's a sign, an omen to just stay the hell away. maybe it was a bad idea to try to be friends, because he's trying to go back on it already, which ends up irritating me and ticking me off. and making me get short with him and not email him as much. because I'm busy steaming somewhere. and I can't not let it bother me because it's like NO MATTER WHAT, he never listens to a word I say. or maybe he does, and it just doesn't matter to him. maybe he just doesn't care? who knows. I just can't stand talking to him when he keeps bringing it up. I can't. because it puts me in a dreadful mood.
I'm sad because this awesome guy in my radio class *drumroll* has a girlfriend, or so it would appear. I am not certain. *shrugs* oh well. such is life. there's not much I can do about it if he does. He just rocks thats all. They'll be others, I hope...
Saturday is McDowell, I'm super super excited. I have to be at the hs at 5:15 in the morning, which sucks...but I'm glad that I'm going. sad that it's my last McDowell meet ever. running Butler XC. I'm gonna shut up now. cause I'll prolly start getting upset or cry or something like that.
I got the info for the tbs show in pittsburgh...and I really really want to go quite badly. I'm trying to figure out a way. I don't even know what day of the week it's on. I'm gonna go see. If it's a school night, it'll probably be a bust. *sigh*
take care everyone
me
I'm sad because this awesome guy in my radio class *drumroll* has a girlfriend, or so it would appear. I am not certain. *shrugs* oh well. such is life. there's not much I can do about it if he does. He just rocks thats all. They'll be others, I hope...
Saturday is McDowell, I'm super super excited. I have to be at the hs at 5:15 in the morning, which sucks...but I'm glad that I'm going. sad that it's my last McDowell meet ever. running Butler XC. I'm gonna shut up now. cause I'll prolly start getting upset or cry or something like that.
I got the info for the tbs show in pittsburgh...and I really really want to go quite badly. I'm trying to figure out a way. I don't even know what day of the week it's on. I'm gonna go see. If it's a school night, it'll probably be a bust. *sigh*
take care everyone
me