Hold on hope
so today was quite a day. The Jazz Band people were gone, which was sad. I didn't get to see steve today as a result. No Cody or Alicia either. which sucked.
today I kinda just said screw it and talked to Jason. I'm so glad he's okay and well, alive. The fact that he could've been killed and it would have been my parents fault if I'd never got to say goodbye really frustrates me. Both of them asked whether I saw him today and how he was. I answered their questions simply...and they dropped it. It's like their blind to the fact that I'm miserable right now. I gave Jason my Virgin Mary medal to keep him safe. If this is what's best for me, then why am I so unhappy?
Prom was awesome...better than everyone had said it was going to be. Steve was an awesome date. :)
I looked for some info on Puerto Plata for our little project in spanish. Then I got offline and wrote a really nice poem. Nice in the fact that it could be considered fairly decent...but it was extremely sad.
Listening to music is really helping me as usual. It's the only way I can escape these barriers and feel like there's hope for us. I love him. Which makes things harder.
Rach had a really odd away message. I honestly do not trust her worth anything. I suspect she still likes Jason. which is understandable. Cause well, I'm in love with the boy. I just have never been one to trust liars and back stabbers. But thats just me.
Physics was crazy as usual. Joe used my eraser, and Miked looked at my diagram for question five. We figured out our problem just before the bell rang. I was so proud of us...lol.
In first period mr. h probably thought I was going to maime trevor. You see, trevor decide on friday that it would be cool to steal my history book and leave it in the choral room. I didn't see it. I left at 11:30, not knowing where my book was. I couldn't finish my homework. I expained to mr. h, but still lost points. I seriously thought that I was going to chew him out. I just informed him that I was not happy and that he was a jerk and needed to grow up.
wow...I'm really sleepy and hungry. I think I'm going to go and get something to eat.
*J*
today I kinda just said screw it and talked to Jason. I'm so glad he's okay and well, alive. The fact that he could've been killed and it would have been my parents fault if I'd never got to say goodbye really frustrates me. Both of them asked whether I saw him today and how he was. I answered their questions simply...and they dropped it. It's like their blind to the fact that I'm miserable right now. I gave Jason my Virgin Mary medal to keep him safe. If this is what's best for me, then why am I so unhappy?
Prom was awesome...better than everyone had said it was going to be. Steve was an awesome date. :)
I looked for some info on Puerto Plata for our little project in spanish. Then I got offline and wrote a really nice poem. Nice in the fact that it could be considered fairly decent...but it was extremely sad.
Listening to music is really helping me as usual. It's the only way I can escape these barriers and feel like there's hope for us. I love him. Which makes things harder.
Rach had a really odd away message. I honestly do not trust her worth anything. I suspect she still likes Jason. which is understandable. Cause well, I'm in love with the boy. I just have never been one to trust liars and back stabbers. But thats just me.
Physics was crazy as usual. Joe used my eraser, and Miked looked at my diagram for question five. We figured out our problem just before the bell rang. I was so proud of us...lol.
In first period mr. h probably thought I was going to maime trevor. You see, trevor decide on friday that it would be cool to steal my history book and leave it in the choral room. I didn't see it. I left at 11:30, not knowing where my book was. I couldn't finish my homework. I expained to mr. h, but still lost points. I seriously thought that I was going to chew him out. I just informed him that I was not happy and that he was a jerk and needed to grow up.
wow...I'm really sleepy and hungry. I think I'm going to go and get something to eat.
*J*