i dont know what im doing.
i really dont know what im doing here. im pushing u away. i hate caring. i hate emotions. i am in a bad mood today. nothing is helping. are we falling apartalready? is that possible? can u take me away from here? i dont know what i want. i want to be alone. i want magic, mystery, illusions. smoke and mirrors, that sort of thing. do i have anything real today? have i encountered anything tangible in the past nine months? i dont know. honestly, i have no idea....