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[glitzygal86]

so....i havent really studied as much as i wanted to study for ap euro. i feel ready tho, which is weird, i dont think i have ever felt ready for a test like this before. im glad my teacher is awesome, even tho she is pycho w/ hw/cw. i wanna take another practice test, but i guess i should sleep. i havent filled out that govenors board app. i need to...morning i will. im not quite sure why i bother, there r so many other people running who r amazingly more amazing than i am by far. but whateva, never hurts to try i s'pose. ladeda. i cant wait till AFTER the exam then ap euro will be EASAY. i begining to really hate ventures. i dont want this to happen. i wish i had the drive to make it amazing...but...everytime i try someone bashes my idea but doesnt give any of there own except oh we need to make the program better first, god damnit, do u think we havent tried?? we need people to make a program and cant have people if they think showing up doesnt matter. goodness, whatever. that was just on insidence there have been so many from so many others. im so sick of stressing over it and sick of alot about it. but it has so much potential, which why i dont give up. the leave no trace thing was cool tho...i think. and maybe this camping trip will be good for me...slash if ur not in ventures already come on the damn trip, thank you. mmmhmm. i need to get cracking on my lines for property rights. i deff had em all memorized last time and then during the run threw screw em all up...that was embarrassing since i only have like uhh 2 lines or somin. but whateva its all good, itll be grrrrrrrrrreat.k now im gonna go now and sleep and such. 13 going on 30 tomorrow? i think yes. or whoaza the beach! i was thinking about my classes for next year, and while im taking 6 they r all ap minus theatre. shit...oh well. its all jake and by jake i mean good. my lips rest in a sad position, that sucks. i should go get plastic surgery so im always smiling...wow jk jk. im positive enough, well correction i can pretend to be positive well enough as it is. i love how much i ramble and dont care how insanely unstructured my entries r,i think i have said this already. goodnight.
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i want comments from people who rarely or never comment on this...why? bc im selfish and i wanna feel loved. teehee im retaaaarrrded, whateva