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im so sick of feeling sorry for myself. i feel like thats all i ever do w/ my time nowadays is feel sorry for myself. i dont even have anything of great significance to feel sorry for. i am such a whiney emo spoiled little brat.i wish i had someone that i could call all the time, regardless of the time or day, just to talk. i wish i had someone that i thought about all the time. i wish i had someone who could keep me from thinking the thoughts i think when im alone. im sick of being alone. i want to fall in love, or at least into lurve(lol kriston). but even if i did, i wonder if id still feel alone, im sure i would. and why cant i just give my heart away anyways? it seems whenever the chance comes up i just hold tight unto that heart of mine. i guess deep down im scared, scared of alot of things. i just wish i dunno, i had less me time i guess. i used to like alone time, but im begining to hate it. but its not like i can stop it from happening i dont have enough friends to distract me all the time. wow ok so this entry is really sucky, and i shouldnt even be writing this but i am. damnit this is why i need not to have an lj.