Stress
Yes it's that time again when stress seems to rule my life for the time being. I hope it doesn't last too long but I fear it may rule for a while this time.
Stressor 1
School. School is half way over for the semester and all hell is breaking lose if you will. I have my 5 page concept paper due tomorrow and I have yet to start on it. I will though although I, and from webct posts others, don't really know how to go about writing it...format wise. He didn't really explain how he wants it or anything so its kind of like diving right in a belly flop if you will. And then on the 22nd I have my 12 page term paper to turn in. Which I also have yet to start on. Yay go me.
And along with school I have decisions to make and I'm back to being a confused person who doesn't have a clue what they want to do with their life. (yes I realize this is just about everyone). Anyway, I have to start registering for classes soon. And I need 45 hours (if I calculated correctly) to graduate. And so I need to take 15 hours a semester to graduate in May 2007 not a problem. But I also need to work on getting my GPA up so that it looks relatively good. And then I need to decided if I want to stay and get my masters. But I don't know if I really want to I think I may just take a break after I get my BA and see what I want to do from there. I'm not sure if my masters will really benefit me because I don't think I'll actually go into the psychology field area after I'm done. So I need to go talk to someone and see what my options are.
Stressor 2
Money. Of course money. I need more hours at work but they haven't given my boss authorization for more hours yet so he is limited to what he can give out. I understand that. I just don't like looking at my bills and seeing how indebt I am. It is kind of sad. But as long as I pay more than the minimum amount on my credit card bills and I pay them on time I'll be fine.
Stressor 3
My job in a way. Since I work at a mall now I will have to probably stay and work for the holidays. I really don't think that I'll be making it home this year for Thanksgiving or Christmas or New Years. My parents are already under the idea that they may very well be coming here for Thanksgiving and Christmas. And if I don't go home for New Years this is going to be the first one that I don't spend with James. For the past 2 years he has been my kiss and hug at midnight. I know that I must move on but it just seems weird. I don't know maybe I'm just silly. So I feel lonely and sad that I more than likely won't be going home until sometime next year. It's just strange. And then with working and having a bad back from the accident long ago. My back hurts alot more lately and I am in pain but I love my job. Maybe I'll get use to it as time goes on and the pain will pass. If not than pain killers are definitely in my future.
So much stress and I don't even really feel like myself lately. I've been sleeping alot more maybe to avoid things or something I'm not sure. Maybe it is something physical, I hope I'm not getting sick... But I wish I could figure out what it is that is making me feel the way I do but I think it all just comes down to the stress that I tend to put upon myself.
Enough of me rambling.
Stressor 1
School. School is half way over for the semester and all hell is breaking lose if you will. I have my 5 page concept paper due tomorrow and I have yet to start on it. I will though although I, and from webct posts others, don't really know how to go about writing it...format wise. He didn't really explain how he wants it or anything so its kind of like diving right in a belly flop if you will. And then on the 22nd I have my 12 page term paper to turn in. Which I also have yet to start on. Yay go me.
And along with school I have decisions to make and I'm back to being a confused person who doesn't have a clue what they want to do with their life. (yes I realize this is just about everyone). Anyway, I have to start registering for classes soon. And I need 45 hours (if I calculated correctly) to graduate. And so I need to take 15 hours a semester to graduate in May 2007 not a problem. But I also need to work on getting my GPA up so that it looks relatively good. And then I need to decided if I want to stay and get my masters. But I don't know if I really want to I think I may just take a break after I get my BA and see what I want to do from there. I'm not sure if my masters will really benefit me because I don't think I'll actually go into the psychology field area after I'm done. So I need to go talk to someone and see what my options are.
Stressor 2
Money. Of course money. I need more hours at work but they haven't given my boss authorization for more hours yet so he is limited to what he can give out. I understand that. I just don't like looking at my bills and seeing how indebt I am. It is kind of sad. But as long as I pay more than the minimum amount on my credit card bills and I pay them on time I'll be fine.
Stressor 3
My job in a way. Since I work at a mall now I will have to probably stay and work for the holidays. I really don't think that I'll be making it home this year for Thanksgiving or Christmas or New Years. My parents are already under the idea that they may very well be coming here for Thanksgiving and Christmas. And if I don't go home for New Years this is going to be the first one that I don't spend with James. For the past 2 years he has been my kiss and hug at midnight. I know that I must move on but it just seems weird. I don't know maybe I'm just silly. So I feel lonely and sad that I more than likely won't be going home until sometime next year. It's just strange. And then with working and having a bad back from the accident long ago. My back hurts alot more lately and I am in pain but I love my job. Maybe I'll get use to it as time goes on and the pain will pass. If not than pain killers are definitely in my future.
So much stress and I don't even really feel like myself lately. I've been sleeping alot more maybe to avoid things or something I'm not sure. Maybe it is something physical, I hope I'm not getting sick... But I wish I could figure out what it is that is making me feel the way I do but I think it all just comes down to the stress that I tend to put upon myself.
Enough of me rambling.