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I think I am suffering of the ennui.
i am lisltess and restless. i wanna work at the daycare. but not having to pay volunteers has prevailed over them giving me a job.
went out to miami lakes cobb theater to support jono.
outdoors Miami is absolutely disgusting in the summer.
my sidewalk is black from the stuff the tree drops.
Impending family drama threatens to ruin the annual trip again. as do certain piggy girls (girl really).
the rain sounds pretty on my window which just proves my inability to focus. on anything.
im very complainy and unsure on just about everything these days. im uncomfortable everywhere and i cant escape it.
im unmotivated to do anything but i complain when i dont.
im upset with myself. instead of dealing with that i convince myself im upset with others. i dont want to be in my place right now. but i dont want to in anyone else's. om sad about something i havent had to be sad about in a long time. it feels like 7th grade all over again.
ive watched gilmore girls, and queer eye, and silly and crazy and sad movies. my body is slouched from all the couch slumming and i want my hair to not be my hair.
i am sufering of the ennui.
i am lisltess and restless. i wanna work at the daycare. but not having to pay volunteers has prevailed over them giving me a job.
went out to miami lakes cobb theater to support jono.
outdoors Miami is absolutely disgusting in the summer.
my sidewalk is black from the stuff the tree drops.
Impending family drama threatens to ruin the annual trip again. as do certain piggy girls (girl really).
the rain sounds pretty on my window which just proves my inability to focus. on anything.
im very complainy and unsure on just about everything these days. im uncomfortable everywhere and i cant escape it.
im unmotivated to do anything but i complain when i dont.
im upset with myself. instead of dealing with that i convince myself im upset with others. i dont want to be in my place right now. but i dont want to in anyone else's. om sad about something i havent had to be sad about in a long time. it feels like 7th grade all over again.
ive watched gilmore girls, and queer eye, and silly and crazy and sad movies. my body is slouched from all the couch slumming and i want my hair to not be my hair.
i am sufering of the ennui.