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[glittershowbug]

fuck you. i hurt. i'm in pain. i'm sad. i'm scared. i'm nervous.
i'm sick.
i'm a sick girl.
i feel the world is against me.
i've caused a lot. i'm really mean. really mean.
i'm trying to pick up the pieces.
i'm trying to make this work.
make me work.

i want to be okay.
but i feel like i'm dying.
too many fires.
too many scars.
too much sick.
i'm stuck.
i don't know how to make this work.
how do i make this work?
how can i make this okay?

do i do this on purpose?
do i do this on purpose and not even know?
am i fully aware of what i am doing and do it anyway?

what the fuck am i doing?
make this work. make me work. i want to be fixed. fix me.
i jibberfuckingish.
jibber jab.
jabber jib.
that's all i fucking hear.
i can no longer wade through the bullshit in my head and make any of it make sense.
cronic panic/pain.
weights on chests.
breathing trouble.
shaking.
insomnia.
worthlessness.
sinking feeling.
incoherence.

i have no fucking idea where to begin.
or how to be.

wake up and rage motherfuckers.