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everything is so fucked up.
i'm happy. but i'm guilty. it's not fair to everyone who isn't happy. so i'm not happy.
i've had some of the best times ever lately, but i can't even write about them. people misunderstand me a lot, and i can't do anything about it. i should think before i act. or, consider things more carefully. people are hypocrits and it's almost funny. but not.
i don't know who hates me. it's scary. i wish i hadn't hurt my friendships this badly.
this is just kind of an open-ended apology gone wrong. i wish i could do real updates.
i'm happy. but i'm guilty. it's not fair to everyone who isn't happy. so i'm not happy.
i've had some of the best times ever lately, but i can't even write about them. people misunderstand me a lot, and i can't do anything about it. i should think before i act. or, consider things more carefully. people are hypocrits and it's almost funny. but not.
i don't know who hates me. it's scary. i wish i hadn't hurt my friendships this badly.
this is just kind of an open-ended apology gone wrong. i wish i could do real updates.