my eyes once so magnetic, now just look empty
*sigh* Just read lena's post about her friend.
I feel you honey. Joshie was my world, and i feel his absence already, came down on me like a ton of bricks. i haven't cried tonight. i had a little mope earlier, i thought i was going to cry then but i didn't. I feel stupid, i feel like i act like he's died...But it does hurt so much. I've punished myself for it. i shouldn't of, but i needed to feel something other than this, and i did. i didn't sleep well last night, and when i did i totally overslept, i had to be at work for 12 and i woke up at 11:30. nice. i had to run round the house, get changed, brush my teeth, just skagged my hair back in my headband. *no makeup* so when i got into town, i bought an eyeliner <3 my savior. work went shit, i broke down in front of my boss and my deputy manager, i felt stupid, alone and confused. i just want to see him again. he's my best friend, and he's gone. dammit. everything good in my life is slipping through my fingers. I'm going to keep onto Izzy. I'm not losing her. i'd rather die than lose her. I'm going to watch sleeping beauty in bed now, hopefully i'll get some sleep.
I feel you honey. Joshie was my world, and i feel his absence already, came down on me like a ton of bricks. i haven't cried tonight. i had a little mope earlier, i thought i was going to cry then but i didn't. I feel stupid, i feel like i act like he's died...But it does hurt so much. I've punished myself for it. i shouldn't of, but i needed to feel something other than this, and i did. i didn't sleep well last night, and when i did i totally overslept, i had to be at work for 12 and i woke up at 11:30. nice. i had to run round the house, get changed, brush my teeth, just skagged my hair back in my headband. *no makeup* so when i got into town, i bought an eyeliner <3 my savior. work went shit, i broke down in front of my boss and my deputy manager, i felt stupid, alone and confused. i just want to see him again. he's my best friend, and he's gone. dammit. everything good in my life is slipping through my fingers. I'm going to keep onto Izzy. I'm not losing her. i'd rather die than lose her. I'm going to watch sleeping beauty in bed now, hopefully i'll get some sleep.