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Something is not quite right with Evie and I can't put my finger on it. For the past week she has been either refusing the bottle or only eating like 2 or 3 oz. She normally guzzles it down and forgets to breath. She will however take the boob, in fact our nursing sessions have been a bit better/longer. She is still popping off every few seconds, sits up looks at the tv or around the room then pops back on to repeat. She will eat solids, in fact I can feed her 2 or 3 bowls of food and she still would eat and eat untill I cut her off. She has been touchy, clingy, whiny, and temper tantumy. She has also been a bit sleepy but not really sleeping like she should during nap time, but at night she sleeps fine with a fight going down. She has no feaver or anything. She has been spitting up alot again and having really hard poops. To make matters worse we are in the process of changing doctors from a GP to a Ped. I called the PEd today to make Evies 9 month well baby visit and they said they cant see her till march for a well baby visit. WTF?! She needs shot, her checkup and damn they should be able to get a new patient in to do a checkup in general and get familiar with her BEFORE she is sick. It is so stupid. I hate to take her to the ER for nothing but I would like her to get checked with all of the things going on lately. Andy suggested to transfer her files back to trivalley if they wont get her in at kids first. I also have been having these awful panic attacks that Evie is going to die of SIDS. I don't know why but I just do. To make things worse I have been getting horrible headaches again behind my eyes. I feel like i did before I lost my vision. The only way to fix it is to lose weight and take dieretics which would kill my supply. I have beed watching what I eat and there is a gym opening up right across the street so hopefully they will have a daycare I can take evie to play while I workout. I really need to work out. I feel so good when I do. I have let myself go way too long. so tired and so much to do.