sigh

Jul 04, 2004 13:58

So, a few nights ago I had dinner with my ex. Suprisingly, it wasn't awkward. We really had a great time. There was one little issue though...I still find myself attracted to him. I don't love him anymore, but i feel the need to a flings. A goodbye fuck. I didn't, and I wouldn't because i wouldn't want to hurt Tom, but it was very tempting.

So, this leads me to questions my feelings to Tom. If i can be tempted to sleep with someone else, should i really be getting married? I'm going to England in a couple of days and I don't feel as excited as I should. I guess once i see him again I'll know, but for now I'm very confused. I feel bad too because i know that he knows something is wrong, but i'm not sure what it is. Whenever people tell me that i'm too young to get married i'm defiant and more gung ho than ever to make it work, but on my own i have reservations. i wonder if i'm really ready to give up my single life for good.

Yeah, so there's my issue. please feel free to offer any suggestions.
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