Ripping my hair out
How is it my fault that kids, that i dont even know, make their own decision to drive drunk, and now are paralyzed???? How is that my fault! My parents bitch at me and threaten me and talk to me like a peice of shit like everything thats wrong in the world is my fault! Im such a good kid too, i dont deserve this. My dads bestfriends daughter recently got into a horrible car accident down the street from us .. her car flipped and smashed and .. i was there and you wouldnt even THINK about the possibility of her surviving. She told the cops and her dad and everyone that a car cut her off and she swerved and since it had rained, it was worse. WELL! I found out from my friends who were at the party with her that she was going home from, that she was robotripping and taking all kinds of drugs, and DECIDED TO RACE some kid. But no, everything thinks shes a good kid and some asshole is the reason for her fucked up scarred face and her smushed ankle and all that other shit that happened to her. How is that fair? Ive never touched a drug in my life, i rarely take chances, i think about the consequences, and i help my fucked up friends get back on track in their fucking lives, but i get the shit end of everything.
My dad thinks he knows me so well. Fucken prick. School is stressful enough, with all this medicine and doctors bullshit i have to do BY MYSELF FOR ONCE, along with still being in love with my ex who NOW HAS A NEW GIRLFRIEND HE FUCKS and everyone being on my ass every second they get for me to get a goddamn job. I KNOW I NEED TO GET A JOB, NO I AM NOT A PROCRASTINATOR, IM FUCKING STRESSED OUT AND I DONT NEED TO BE TOLD THAT EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT. NO, IM SORRY YOURE WRONG, I DID NOT BOMB THE WORLD TRADE CENTERS, I DID NOT INVENT AIDS, I DONT THINK FOR ALL THESE SKIIED UP KIDS TO STEAL CARS AND SHOOT PEOPLE! I AM MY OWN PERSON TRYING TO SURVIVE YOURE FUCKING WRATH AND NOT KILL MYSELF, KINDA LIKE I HAVE BEEN DOING FOR THE PAST 5 YEARS! IM ON THE BRINK OF FUCKING INSANITY, SO BACK THE FUCK DOWN!!!
and, i think i blew my ears out.
super.
My dad thinks he knows me so well. Fucken prick. School is stressful enough, with all this medicine and doctors bullshit i have to do BY MYSELF FOR ONCE, along with still being in love with my ex who NOW HAS A NEW GIRLFRIEND HE FUCKS and everyone being on my ass every second they get for me to get a goddamn job. I KNOW I NEED TO GET A JOB, NO I AM NOT A PROCRASTINATOR, IM FUCKING STRESSED OUT AND I DONT NEED TO BE TOLD THAT EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT. NO, IM SORRY YOURE WRONG, I DID NOT BOMB THE WORLD TRADE CENTERS, I DID NOT INVENT AIDS, I DONT THINK FOR ALL THESE SKIIED UP KIDS TO STEAL CARS AND SHOOT PEOPLE! I AM MY OWN PERSON TRYING TO SURVIVE YOURE FUCKING WRATH AND NOT KILL MYSELF, KINDA LIKE I HAVE BEEN DOING FOR THE PAST 5 YEARS! IM ON THE BRINK OF FUCKING INSANITY, SO BACK THE FUCK DOWN!!!
and, i think i blew my ears out.
super.