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So I haven't been on here in 22 weeks...
And now I'm in class, where we are discussing gender roles in pokemon! Which is actually making me sort of angry, because I want to debate most of this stuff, but first of all: that would reveal me as a huge dork, and second: most of this is right. At least, from a first impression, literalist point of view, which we are not looking at, we are looking at the gender roles impressed on young children. And they are literalist. It's how their brains work. But still, I want to... rrrgh. (Brock is so much more of a female mothering role than Misty!!1 *is taken away in a straightjacket*)
In other news, Halloween, being a major holiday, is also a main milestone for me, this is where I take a step back, line up my life (hard when my thought process is very rarely linear) and try to match all this up against where I think I SHOULD be. Stupid media influence is all over there. And right now, on one hand, I have a steady job, am paying rent, paying my own way through school, and am paying off a car. On the other, I moved back in with my mother and sister, pay very little compared to what I consume, and contribute very little about the house. I really don't like being this dependent, but every time I start thinking about changing it, I realize I'd very quickly become in debt and tied to many things I couldn't handle, like rent and basic survival. Food is necessary for that right?
In more line up news, I have in my 19 and 1/2 years, had... 2 real boyfriends, one semi girlfriend, and one semi boyfriend. I had a real relationship before I became 19, which was one of those personal goals that if I hadn't matched up with, I would have felt it a personal failing. Fucked that up royally, but whatever. It counted. And now, I'm coming upon the realization I haven't been on a date in over half a year. This makes me want to try to date someone, despite having no libido, no one of interest, and until I realized the length of time not caring at all. Is this a normal driving force for people's lives?
Hrmph. Also, -__-. Descriptive, no? SOmeone tell me what I'm doing wrong with my life, give me a little checklist, and I could fix it. Living it is so ineffectual.
And now I'm in class, where we are discussing gender roles in pokemon! Which is actually making me sort of angry, because I want to debate most of this stuff, but first of all: that would reveal me as a huge dork, and second: most of this is right. At least, from a first impression, literalist point of view, which we are not looking at, we are looking at the gender roles impressed on young children. And they are literalist. It's how their brains work. But still, I want to... rrrgh. (Brock is so much more of a female mothering role than Misty!!1 *is taken away in a straightjacket*)
In other news, Halloween, being a major holiday, is also a main milestone for me, this is where I take a step back, line up my life (hard when my thought process is very rarely linear) and try to match all this up against where I think I SHOULD be. Stupid media influence is all over there. And right now, on one hand, I have a steady job, am paying rent, paying my own way through school, and am paying off a car. On the other, I moved back in with my mother and sister, pay very little compared to what I consume, and contribute very little about the house. I really don't like being this dependent, but every time I start thinking about changing it, I realize I'd very quickly become in debt and tied to many things I couldn't handle, like rent and basic survival. Food is necessary for that right?
In more line up news, I have in my 19 and 1/2 years, had... 2 real boyfriends, one semi girlfriend, and one semi boyfriend. I had a real relationship before I became 19, which was one of those personal goals that if I hadn't matched up with, I would have felt it a personal failing. Fucked that up royally, but whatever. It counted. And now, I'm coming upon the realization I haven't been on a date in over half a year. This makes me want to try to date someone, despite having no libido, no one of interest, and until I realized the length of time not caring at all. Is this a normal driving force for people's lives?
Hrmph. Also, -__-. Descriptive, no? SOmeone tell me what I'm doing wrong with my life, give me a little checklist, and I could fix it. Living it is so ineffectual.