...You Don't Forget, Ch. 18; Epilogue

[blindswandive]

Title: ...You Don't Forget, Ch. 18/18, + epilogue
Author: blindswandive
Characters/Pairing: Ambrose/Cain; feat. various palace people
Rating: PG13 - PG16
Summary: This is a very long story that has been going on for a very long time. There are broken people and awkward relationships. There are unhappy pasts, a complicated present, and an uncertain future

Comments

[blindswandive]

<3 <3 <3 I am SO SO SO glad you liked this. I was so afraid Ch. 18 was just going to fall on its own face, or that the Queen intervening was too deus-ex-machina, but it just seemed like it was what had to happen. I really didn't want this to turn into a police procedural with a courtroom drama, and.. well, I really liked not knowing for sure how complicit Ambrose was in the whole thing, whether Az just jumped, or Ambrose gave in and pushed her, or if just the Glitch side took enough prerogative to shove, and I hated the thought of pinning it down. ...I guess it's been that way the whole time, though--disappearing, visiting Az at the tree and so on. I want him to be imperfect, and don't want to absolve him of everything as not being under his own control, but don't want to nail him down to any particular misdeeds, either. ...I actually don't even think *he* knows exactly how involved he's been, which is just scary and lovely.

There were so many other things that almost happened along the way, so many places it almost went better or worse or off on some other road (had a scene of finding Az way earlier, but Amb convincing the Queen that she had tried to commit suicide and wanted them to take her away from the palace.. one of Az trying to blackmail Amb into copping to the push to keep her from tattling on Cain.. and I was fascinated by the idea that if it went through trial it would be blamed on the Glitch hand's uncontrollability, and the solution being essentially: if you want to be released back into society, that's going to have to be restrained/sedated/otherwise dealt with. Etc etc.) But getting them the hell out of the range of where Ambrose and Azkadellia can hurt one another just by existing has got to be the best thing for them all. That was just never going to work.

I don't know why I love making them fix houses so much, though. If they don't have hammers in their hands and holes overhead, I'm just not happy, apparently.

(I kind of loved Azkadellia in this, too, actually; I really don't think she's just evil and torturing him for the sake of it, but that she kind of doesn't know what else to do. It's the closest thing she's had to a human relationship, and there are only so many ways she knows to keep people close to her when they try to get away.)

And and... yes, I was SO happy with Ambrose blowing air - and "Ambrosian" is an Excellent adjective! <3 And...

And I should probably stop writing your ear off. It's just been so long since I got to dig into this, and there's been so much I've been sitting on, it's kinda' bursting!

Thank you again so much for sticking with this to the end - I am so happy you're happy with how it closed off. ::so many hugs::