Pick Me Up
This is going along with Kristin's entry but,
I can't help but keep feeling like I'm going to be in school forever. It's such an on going process and even when I think I'm going to get a break, I have to go back to school. I have 1 year left after this 6 weeks, but then I have another 2 in grad school. Part of me doesn't even want to go to grad school and just get a real job, start a REAL life, my own life, a nontransitional or school life.
I plan so much of my life that it doesn't even feel like life. Life is supposedly to be unpredictable and spontaneous. It's supposed to be where one day you're one place and the other day you could be in a completely different country. I guess it comes down to the safety and comfort issue. You feel safe and comfortable where you've been for the past 19, 20, 21 years. Sometimes I want to take safety and throw it out the window, just take a chance and go somewhere else, see what's out there to explore. Going that way with the person I love would definitely be perfect.
Maybe it's a girl thing. Our want from the age of 5 to have our dream wedding, our dream family, our dream life. Maybe I just want that to start already. I want function and less stress. My own furniture would be nice. A stable really awesome, good paying job.
I mean, no one is going to end up where they started off, right? We're all not going to live in Pembroke Pines forever even though our parents may live there, atleast, I'm not. We're all eventually going to go our seperate ways.
I'm just not patient, but I guess you have to be if you want bliss.
Can I have these fresh in my room forever? You're too cute/good/amazing/wonderful/d.all of the above, to me.
I can't help but keep feeling like I'm going to be in school forever. It's such an on going process and even when I think I'm going to get a break, I have to go back to school. I have 1 year left after this 6 weeks, but then I have another 2 in grad school. Part of me doesn't even want to go to grad school and just get a real job, start a REAL life, my own life, a nontransitional or school life.
I plan so much of my life that it doesn't even feel like life. Life is supposedly to be unpredictable and spontaneous. It's supposed to be where one day you're one place and the other day you could be in a completely different country. I guess it comes down to the safety and comfort issue. You feel safe and comfortable where you've been for the past 19, 20, 21 years. Sometimes I want to take safety and throw it out the window, just take a chance and go somewhere else, see what's out there to explore. Going that way with the person I love would definitely be perfect.
Maybe it's a girl thing. Our want from the age of 5 to have our dream wedding, our dream family, our dream life. Maybe I just want that to start already. I want function and less stress. My own furniture would be nice. A stable really awesome, good paying job.
I mean, no one is going to end up where they started off, right? We're all not going to live in Pembroke Pines forever even though our parents may live there, atleast, I'm not. We're all eventually going to go our seperate ways.
I'm just not patient, but I guess you have to be if you want bliss.
Can I have these fresh in my room forever? You're too cute/good/amazing/wonderful/d.all of the above, to me.