Jan 14, 2004 23:15
Diamond wrote in her diary, "Dearest Pippin. I am writing to you on this page because because you are not here with me. It is so strange, dear heart. I should feel happy to be seeing my beloved Northfarthing moors again, but I only feel like weeping. Why is that, I wonder? Since we married, you and I both have taken trips apart from each other now and again, but this is the very first time that I have ever been afraid not to have you with me. Every turn of the cart's wheels carries me further from you and our son. I am all a tangle, heading out on a great journey, but longing only to retrace my steps and rush home to you. You are all that I see before my eyes. Every step takes me further away, but with every step I take, my mind and my heart seem to be flying on wings back to Tuckborough, and you."
"I hope that by now you have read the letter that I left for you. Forgive me for being a coward and using the letter to ask you to join me. I could not look into your kind eyes and ask for you to come with me, but I also could not bear for you to not to be here. Oh, how I wish you were with me! I knew that if I had looked into your eyes that all my resolve to go would have crumbled. I must keep my word to the dragon. What use would I be to any alive if I did not keep my word? But I could not put that burden on you. You may come with me if you wish, but I will notwill understand if you do not."
"I should arrive in Long Cleeve tomorrow, and I'll press on with my journey the day after that. I will not linger. I will not even stop for meals, you will see! I will hurry down to Buckland, where I will call on Merry and Estella before I go on to Bree. I've good maps, dearest, so I shall not get lost. From Bree, I will choose the road that will bring me to the dragon at Withered Heath as fast as can be done. And then from there, back home to you if the dragon does not eat me."