"Guys get one chance. Just one. If they blow it, they're screwed, you get to move on."
Well... week's over. Finally. Yesterday was actually pretty good, until the end. Cuz, ok... Starting with yesterday day... It started off not too awesome, for reasons that really don't need to be described, and then in third hour... gosh, it's so weird how Calc always makes me better... It's just fun. Someone asked McCartney to do a problem with trig in it, so he picked number 40, which he had never done before... and boy did he fuck it up... Lol. He got stuck on something, and then Dan Frysinger figured it out before he did, and then he screwed something else up (he thought an addition sign was multiplication), so it took 30 minutes for him to figure out what he did wrong... it was just amazing. And then band sucked, cuz Ash and Tiff ABANDONED ME... haha, but it's ok. Then APE was amazing... we had a sub... and she was awesome... she told us we weren't allowed to goof around, but that's all we did... and she helped us! Lol, it was just so funny... I think you'd kinda have to be in the class to get it. But it was fun. Then Cadet... yesterday, Mr. Sewick and I talked all hour about my issues (the kids are gone on Thursdays). And it was just really helpful. I mean, not really in the sense that he told me anything I didn't already know, but I think just talking about it with someone other than the people who have to hear it every day... I think it just helped. And he reminded me about the whole "If you love someone, set them free, if they come back to you, it was meant to be" thing.... And then yesterday, he's like "Ya know what? He's a guy. Guys get one chance. That's it. If they blow it, they're screwed, you get to move on." Which was... I dunno. It kind helped.
And then the parade last night. It was nice to have the guard together. I miss those girls so much, they make me so happy. But then after the parade... well, I knew what was happening, and it kinda got me down. And then Chels, Cole and Brett came over... and they all decided to take a bath together... They were wearing swimsuits, though, it's ok. Then we all just kinda chilled in the living room and talked... I love those talks and I hate them. I'm so sick of being the ugly, gross one in the group. And those talks just kind of remind me. Like... I know how stupid it sounds, but we were talking about who, out of the 5 of us, we'd rather make out with. And Chels picked Cole, Cole picked Chels, Brett picked Chels, and Cody would pick Cole. Which leaves me. As always. I'm the only one in the group who hasn't had another person in the group head over heels in love with me, and it's just not a big ego booster, ya know? And I know how stupid it is, but... I dunno. It's how I feel. So that, combined with what I knew was happening, combined with the awful, combine with the lack of sleeping for almost 4 days... well... naturally, I fell asleep. And I think they got mad at me for it. But I dunno. So, Ok, I guess that's it. I'm gonna go do something now. Ugh, I just wanna sleep for a few days or years or something...
And then the parade last night. It was nice to have the guard together. I miss those girls so much, they make me so happy. But then after the parade... well, I knew what was happening, and it kinda got me down. And then Chels, Cole and Brett came over... and they all decided to take a bath together... They were wearing swimsuits, though, it's ok. Then we all just kinda chilled in the living room and talked... I love those talks and I hate them. I'm so sick of being the ugly, gross one in the group. And those talks just kind of remind me. Like... I know how stupid it sounds, but we were talking about who, out of the 5 of us, we'd rather make out with. And Chels picked Cole, Cole picked Chels, Brett picked Chels, and Cody would pick Cole. Which leaves me. As always. I'm the only one in the group who hasn't had another person in the group head over heels in love with me, and it's just not a big ego booster, ya know? And I know how stupid it is, but... I dunno. It's how I feel. So that, combined with what I knew was happening, combined with the awful, combine with the lack of sleeping for almost 4 days... well... naturally, I fell asleep. And I think they got mad at me for it. But I dunno. So, Ok, I guess that's it. I'm gonna go do something now. Ugh, I just wanna sleep for a few days or years or something...