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don't really have any other place to post things where no one reads them - funny how the internet produces this strange desire-if i write something but don't put it online it doesn't mean anything. but i need to put it online secretly. what a stupid concept. but if i don't put this online it won't be anything and it won't be enough. i need to save this moment briefly.
went to see blue valentine tonight with a friend. it's about the death of love and the failure of marriage and why to always wear condoms. so there was some stuff in it for me i guess, and it was pretty visually beautiful, i guess. enough to make me look for clips of it online afterwards. so i went on youtube, looking. and i was in separate tabs listening to her music because i'd gone on last.fm and had stalked her page and she'd listened to a new demo version of a song i wrote the lyrics for way back in the day. so i went on her drummer's soundcloud to see if he'd uploaded it, but he hadn't, so i went on her soundcloud to listen to the acoustic guitar version of a song she wrote on the piano one day when i was over and whose lyrics, which she added later on, were about me. so i listen to the guitar version, and i start watching blue valentine clips and just as one starts the piano version of the aforementioned song started playing in its tab. and for a second i didn't realize, i thought it was the background music for that clip. but then i was like, oh, whoops. so i paused it. but the next clip i watched was scored by the grizzly bear song foreground, which has an opening piano melody that is almost EXACTLY the same as her piano melody, so close it's uncanny. and i don't think she'd even ever listened to that song, and she wrote hers months before the movie came out. so it's just one of those, if you have enough people with similar pop sensibilities writing the same things on the same instruments with the same chords you're gonna get coincidences like that. but it's just weird that her song semi-scored one clip and their song legit-scored another and they both worked pretty perfectly. i tried to get her into grizzly bear back when we first were getting to know each other and i don't think it ever took, for whatever reason. and i want to just message her that clip, with the grizzly bear song, and see if she'll hear what i heard, but it seems unnecessarily mean, and i don't want to be that kind of ex-boyfriend. i just want to be with her again, later on, when we're both mature enough to handle it, but who knows if that'll ever happen, and anyway, we'll just end up going blue valentine on each other, right? that's how all relationships end these days.
went to see blue valentine tonight with a friend. it's about the death of love and the failure of marriage and why to always wear condoms. so there was some stuff in it for me i guess, and it was pretty visually beautiful, i guess. enough to make me look for clips of it online afterwards. so i went on youtube, looking. and i was in separate tabs listening to her music because i'd gone on last.fm and had stalked her page and she'd listened to a new demo version of a song i wrote the lyrics for way back in the day. so i went on her drummer's soundcloud to see if he'd uploaded it, but he hadn't, so i went on her soundcloud to listen to the acoustic guitar version of a song she wrote on the piano one day when i was over and whose lyrics, which she added later on, were about me. so i listen to the guitar version, and i start watching blue valentine clips and just as one starts the piano version of the aforementioned song started playing in its tab. and for a second i didn't realize, i thought it was the background music for that clip. but then i was like, oh, whoops. so i paused it. but the next clip i watched was scored by the grizzly bear song foreground, which has an opening piano melody that is almost EXACTLY the same as her piano melody, so close it's uncanny. and i don't think she'd even ever listened to that song, and she wrote hers months before the movie came out. so it's just one of those, if you have enough people with similar pop sensibilities writing the same things on the same instruments with the same chords you're gonna get coincidences like that. but it's just weird that her song semi-scored one clip and their song legit-scored another and they both worked pretty perfectly. i tried to get her into grizzly bear back when we first were getting to know each other and i don't think it ever took, for whatever reason. and i want to just message her that clip, with the grizzly bear song, and see if she'll hear what i heard, but it seems unnecessarily mean, and i don't want to be that kind of ex-boyfriend. i just want to be with her again, later on, when we're both mature enough to handle it, but who knows if that'll ever happen, and anyway, we'll just end up going blue valentine on each other, right? that's how all relationships end these days.