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After this was posted sharon wasn't particuarly happy with me for posting it. saying i had jumped to the wrong conclusions.
I hadn't. Really, it's not often i'm wrong. So i've decided to put it back up. Read her journal to see if you think i was wrong
Well i was going to do a long post on how Sharon is leaving me.
But i don't want to spend much time on this, it hurts too much as it is.
But with what i concluded today i feel i need to get some things off of my chest.
EDIT: i failed read behine the cut if you want to know my side of the story. I've probably missed bits, some of my conclusions may not be accurate, but i'm not often wrong, eh sharon.
About 3 weekends a go Sharon was acting a bit odd, she went out ALL day on a Saturday and turned her phone off, wouldn't speak to me and wouldn't reply to txts. I was worried sick, i knew she'd been working really late that night and had convinced myself that she'd crashed from driving too tired. She hadn't, but she didnt exactly tell me where she'd been other than 'out'
When she finally came home she told me things were not right and she needed her space. so for the week after that i tried to stay out of her way. Fast forward to last friday, i aked if she had plans for the weekend and she replied she did, said she was going to London and probably going to meet up with Cosmolude. I dont think she did. Rae perhaps you could clear that up. I received maybe 4 or 5 texts from her saying she was still alive and eventually that she was staying out with Cosmolude and would be home on Sunday, she cam home about 22:00 on Sunday.
I spent Sunday carving into my arm with a knife and came as close as i ever want to, to taking my own life. I couldn't understand what i had done to deserve this, i had never felt so bad in my life.
As it transpires i believe she spent all weekend with a man named Cole. Sharon had been spending ages playing World of Warcraft with him, and i'm sure putting down the foundation for a relationship. I cant prove this, but i'd had my suspicions and had voiced them to Sharon, initially by taking the pee a little but then expressing actual concerns about what was going on there, she shrugged it off and said i didnt need to worry 'he was just a friend'. That Sunday night i went and took refuge in the only place i could, at my Boss' house.
I popped in and out of home a few times during the week and had managed to keep things civil between myself and sharon. Then on Friday i spoke to her and told her that i wasn't going up north as i'd expected for the weekend, at which point she told me i needed to call before i came to the house. Now, call me weird but its half my house and has all my possesions in, why the hell should i have to make an appointment to visit ? (plot thickens ?) was home on friday night before sharon had got there and spoke to Rachel, she'd gotten a lot of grief from sharon as i said i wasnt going to call, so for rachels sake as it was her birthday weekend i said id call, but only that weekend and only for her sake. i eventually saw sharon on saturday as i called in and she was fine with me being there. but then she got a call and made excuses as to why she couldn't talk, but with sharons phone being so loud i heard a mans voice saying "well im outside but i can see glens here" it wasn't StevieB as she told me, it was cole. who then spent the night in my bed with the woman i'm married to, thats confirmed. Rachel isnt that great at telling lies Sharon, it was written all over her face.
Oh and whilst all this was going on and i was being civil to that woman, i had agreed to take on the house with the house with the mortgage and secured loan so that she could afford to move out. thats me taking on 25k of bad debpt + the original mortgage which has 130kish left to pay to the woman that decided that heck thigs arnt too well stuff my wedding vows that i made in fron of friends and family i'll turn the back on the man thats always been there for me for the last 8 and half years.
Her words "things arn't working out, and i din't hink i want them to."
I must be some kind of fucking monster to deserve this. Maybe i was a Nazi in a previous life.
At this moment in time after having it confirmed that, that man spent the night in my bed and feeling as though thats proven my suspicions i feel a mixture of sick, suicidal and pure hatred.
i don't know what to do when even after whats happened i've been trying to make thigns better for her and it turns out shes been shitting on me all through this.
Obviously i'm biased, but i just thought that after 8 and a half years it wouldnt end like this.
I hadn't. Really, it's not often i'm wrong. So i've decided to put it back up. Read her journal to see if you think i was wrong
Well i was going to do a long post on how Sharon is leaving me.
But i don't want to spend much time on this, it hurts too much as it is.
But with what i concluded today i feel i need to get some things off of my chest.
EDIT: i failed read behine the cut if you want to know my side of the story. I've probably missed bits, some of my conclusions may not be accurate, but i'm not often wrong, eh sharon.
About 3 weekends a go Sharon was acting a bit odd, she went out ALL day on a Saturday and turned her phone off, wouldn't speak to me and wouldn't reply to txts. I was worried sick, i knew she'd been working really late that night and had convinced myself that she'd crashed from driving too tired. She hadn't, but she didnt exactly tell me where she'd been other than 'out'
When she finally came home she told me things were not right and she needed her space. so for the week after that i tried to stay out of her way. Fast forward to last friday, i aked if she had plans for the weekend and she replied she did, said she was going to London and probably going to meet up with Cosmolude. I dont think she did. Rae perhaps you could clear that up. I received maybe 4 or 5 texts from her saying she was still alive and eventually that she was staying out with Cosmolude and would be home on Sunday, she cam home about 22:00 on Sunday.
I spent Sunday carving into my arm with a knife and came as close as i ever want to, to taking my own life. I couldn't understand what i had done to deserve this, i had never felt so bad in my life.
As it transpires i believe she spent all weekend with a man named Cole. Sharon had been spending ages playing World of Warcraft with him, and i'm sure putting down the foundation for a relationship. I cant prove this, but i'd had my suspicions and had voiced them to Sharon, initially by taking the pee a little but then expressing actual concerns about what was going on there, she shrugged it off and said i didnt need to worry 'he was just a friend'. That Sunday night i went and took refuge in the only place i could, at my Boss' house.
I popped in and out of home a few times during the week and had managed to keep things civil between myself and sharon. Then on Friday i spoke to her and told her that i wasn't going up north as i'd expected for the weekend, at which point she told me i needed to call before i came to the house. Now, call me weird but its half my house and has all my possesions in, why the hell should i have to make an appointment to visit ? (plot thickens ?) was home on friday night before sharon had got there and spoke to Rachel, she'd gotten a lot of grief from sharon as i said i wasnt going to call, so for rachels sake as it was her birthday weekend i said id call, but only that weekend and only for her sake. i eventually saw sharon on saturday as i called in and she was fine with me being there. but then she got a call and made excuses as to why she couldn't talk, but with sharons phone being so loud i heard a mans voice saying "well im outside but i can see glens here" it wasn't StevieB as she told me, it was cole. who then spent the night in my bed with the woman i'm married to, thats confirmed. Rachel isnt that great at telling lies Sharon, it was written all over her face.
Oh and whilst all this was going on and i was being civil to that woman, i had agreed to take on the house with the house with the mortgage and secured loan so that she could afford to move out. thats me taking on 25k of bad debpt + the original mortgage which has 130kish left to pay to the woman that decided that heck thigs arnt too well stuff my wedding vows that i made in fron of friends and family i'll turn the back on the man thats always been there for me for the last 8 and half years.
Her words "things arn't working out, and i din't hink i want them to."
I must be some kind of fucking monster to deserve this. Maybe i was a Nazi in a previous life.
At this moment in time after having it confirmed that, that man spent the night in my bed and feeling as though thats proven my suspicions i feel a mixture of sick, suicidal and pure hatred.
i don't know what to do when even after whats happened i've been trying to make thigns better for her and it turns out shes been shitting on me all through this.
Obviously i'm biased, but i just thought that after 8 and a half years it wouldnt end like this.