UGH.
So guys, I've temporarily moved out. My mom wanted me to stay with her until school starts, which is in a couple weeks, and so I came to my Grandma's house with her. I say temporarily because not only does this feel temporary, but I really don't feel at home here. It's just not as welcoming as my home is, and if I get a chance to head back over there sooner rather than later I will take that chance.
My Grandma's house isn't too far from a college, and that college is alllowing students with a high enough GPA to take classes there (guys, my mom picked up my transcript and I'm ranked number one of my class :DDDDD *I is a smarty pants, I is a smarty pants*) and I would have no problem getting in. The problem? As awesome of an oppurtunity it is I want to be with my friends, the ones that I've already known 1-2 years. I'm pretty good about making new friends, but I DON'T WANT TO. I hate switching schools and being thrown into a new environment and new people. The idea that I can graduate from a school that I went to all four years? That makes me ridiculously happy. So anyways, my mom wants me to try going to the college, but even if I do go the first week (it starts a week before my school) I'm not going to stay. I'm not going to lie, my mind is made up. I spent so long in an iffy stage where I didn't know if I was going to change schools or not, and now that I've finally gotten a sure answer I'm not going to give it up.
Even aside from me, a friend of mine got extremely sad, I would almost use the word depressed, last year when she didn't think I would be going back to that school. I've grown a very maternal attachment to her and I DUN WANNA LEAVE HER!
Other than that, I think my body naturally does it's best to avoid work. Last time I move abruptly? I was sick, and I felt like complete and utter shit (which made coming home to no bed to nap on absolutely WONDERFUL). But that meant that my family let me curl up and just be miserable. This time? My body decided now was the perfect time to start my period. That always makes me feel like crud and the cramps hurt so much and UGH.
Last night I couldn't sleep. It was hot, I had to share a bed with my mom and she decided to have my brother sleep with us too so he wouldn't start fighting with my other brothers and they took up most of the bed and they ended up shifting diagonally and I WAS STUCK IN THE FREAKING CORNER OF THE FREAKING BED. Eventually I gave up on trying to sleep and just sat on the floor with the laptop. Read more fic. It's still awkward reading fic while in the same room as family, but I also think it's hilarious that I've only ever been caught once. (My brother peeked over my shoulder..."What are you reading? Puck? Kurt? What?" Ugh, I was mortified. Didn't give him an answer, of course.) I miss my bed, where I'm all alone and don't have to be around the body heat of another person WHEN IT'S ALREADY SO HOT DANGIT CALIFORNIA MAKE THE HEAT GO AWAY and also this bed is not very comfortable.
AND GUYS, I FEEL SO HORRIBLE FOR IT, BUT I WANT TO STAY AT LEAST UNTIL MONDAY BECAUSE I'M NOT GOING TO BE AN ASS AND ASK IF I CAN KEEP THE LAPTOP, BUT I KIND OF NEED IT FOR _SPNPARTY'S SUNDAY FREE FOR ALL, AND ALSO I'VE GOT SO MUCH STUFF ON HERE. I've got my downloads, so I've got Sherlock, Alice, Hamlet, and all my stuff from Anime Expo. Then I've got my programs, like Gimp and DivX and DAMMIT I NEED A HARDDRIVE.
I'm just going to go on Hulu and watch White Collar.