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Today I set out to go clothes shopping, something I've been trying to do for weeks. I should have given up after I spent 40 minutes lost in Chinatown en route to Downtown Crossing. As Bostonians know, Chinatown isn't very big, and yet...ugh. This was, of course, the hottest 40 minutes of the day. I finally arrived at my destination, only to spend over three hours shopping at several stores and coming home with a five dollar book and a stomach full of gross McDonald's food. After returning home today from my shopping excursion, I was so worn out that I fell asleep at 5pm. For THREE HOURS. I woke up at 8, groggy and confused about why it was dark out, and when exactly I'd eat dinner, as naps effectively erase my appetite.
I think that at this point, I just give up. I have been shopping so many times with the same results that I am completely disheartened, and I feel that in the process I've lost any sense of personal style/taste I once had, as I now feel only revulsion when I set foot into a store and see the merchandise at hand. I just feel like...long shirts??! Why would any self-respecting short person wear such a thing??? What happened to shirts that didn't make me look like a wacky midget? Why, oh why, are SKINNY JEANS, of all things, making a comeback?? I feel like everyone in the fashion industry is laughing at me, because what short person can wear *any* of this stuff?! And yet, I see everyone around me in these crazy clothes, somehow looking okay (for the most part). Meanwhile, NOTHING looks good on me, I feel ugly and stupid in everything I try on, and nothing fits correctly (don't even get me started on THAT).
Maybe I'm delusion. Afterall, when I get dressed in the morning I usually feel pretty good about whatever I choose to wear on that particular day -- until I set foot on the street and see how other people look, which makes me want to run back to my apartment and cry. Maybe this is just the next phase in the inevitable process of becoming a shut-in, I don't know. All I do know is that whenever I'm out and about amongst The People, it's only a matter of time before I feel completely horrible about how I look and my skin starts to crawl. I don't like being in my apartment all the time, but all I think about when I'm out is how much I wish I were at home where I feel comfortable. I am clearly insane.
I think that at this point, I just give up. I have been shopping so many times with the same results that I am completely disheartened, and I feel that in the process I've lost any sense of personal style/taste I once had, as I now feel only revulsion when I set foot into a store and see the merchandise at hand. I just feel like...long shirts??! Why would any self-respecting short person wear such a thing??? What happened to shirts that didn't make me look like a wacky midget? Why, oh why, are SKINNY JEANS, of all things, making a comeback?? I feel like everyone in the fashion industry is laughing at me, because what short person can wear *any* of this stuff?! And yet, I see everyone around me in these crazy clothes, somehow looking okay (for the most part). Meanwhile, NOTHING looks good on me, I feel ugly and stupid in everything I try on, and nothing fits correctly (don't even get me started on THAT).
Maybe I'm delusion. Afterall, when I get dressed in the morning I usually feel pretty good about whatever I choose to wear on that particular day -- until I set foot on the street and see how other people look, which makes me want to run back to my apartment and cry. Maybe this is just the next phase in the inevitable process of becoming a shut-in, I don't know. All I do know is that whenever I'm out and about amongst The People, it's only a matter of time before I feel completely horrible about how I look and my skin starts to crawl. I don't like being in my apartment all the time, but all I think about when I'm out is how much I wish I were at home where I feel comfortable. I am clearly insane.