hmmm
so as i am waiting for all my applications to be sent cuz i guess everyone is trying at the same time it occured to me... everyone i have ever cared for has now changed. i mean ever since my brother got back from war he is different and then my other one is too whooped by his g/f to realize he changed. all my old best friends have changed even my 1st lov steven he definitely changed. wtf man!!! Anyways it kinda sucks how a year from now more things will change and how i won't see half of the people i usually see. but i guess thats how life is right? the saddest thing is that i don't feel bad or different from all of it, nor do i feel happy. it's like it is what it is. i don't know maybe i'm just crazy, but it was something that came to my head.