its what u get when u ride in cars with the boy you love~~
~riding in the car i felt too much.
thinking of what to do now. how to feel, how to act...what to do.
i look at you and i kno.
i somehow know every shitty crumb of my "so called" "life" will all
fall into place, as i always say. and y wouldnt it?
Oh, and how that fucking heavy night fell upon us as the time rushed by to take me away.
i didnt want to go. i didnt want you to leave.
~ive always loved every inch of seconds we spend together. could u tell how they crept upon us as we lay in bed? in each others arms. sneaky suckers.
~ive always loved the sweet taste of the cigarette that once was hanging on ur lips. now i have them. all for me. i know just how to handle them.
and ive always loved the fog that blocked the way to see you. i couldnt make you out. i didnt know what you were. until u opened up to me. ha, y me?
it was then when i realized the passion in the eyes of the stranger i never knew.
who wouldve thought it was u? that would put me in this position?
the position of when u leave i want to run after u until my legs are no more. scary thing: i can see it happening.
and, the position of holding my breath till the next time i see you. if i do attempt, they will never take u away again.
an now,i feel to drown in the water my whiny eyes let out every time u disappear. if i do drown will they take u away still? will you want to leave?
can u ever stay for a while longer? DO u even want to stay? will u ever lie?
do u ever say the truth? do you ever speak whats REALLY on that calmly insane mind of yours? will i ever have the god damn patience with my own self to NOT ask and wonder bout so many question of stupidity???
~i wish to be sane, as my loveR is. i wish US to be real. i wish us to live happily ever on. i wish for faith in OUR being..from you, that is.
+i know u love me, u say it all the time. its time to shut up and show me.+
....and i'll wish you a good night. <3
thinking of what to do now. how to feel, how to act...what to do.
i look at you and i kno.
i somehow know every shitty crumb of my "so called" "life" will all
fall into place, as i always say. and y wouldnt it?
Oh, and how that fucking heavy night fell upon us as the time rushed by to take me away.
i didnt want to go. i didnt want you to leave.
~ive always loved every inch of seconds we spend together. could u tell how they crept upon us as we lay in bed? in each others arms. sneaky suckers.
~ive always loved the sweet taste of the cigarette that once was hanging on ur lips. now i have them. all for me. i know just how to handle them.
and ive always loved the fog that blocked the way to see you. i couldnt make you out. i didnt know what you were. until u opened up to me. ha, y me?
it was then when i realized the passion in the eyes of the stranger i never knew.
who wouldve thought it was u? that would put me in this position?
the position of when u leave i want to run after u until my legs are no more. scary thing: i can see it happening.
and, the position of holding my breath till the next time i see you. if i do attempt, they will never take u away again.
an now,i feel to drown in the water my whiny eyes let out every time u disappear. if i do drown will they take u away still? will you want to leave?
can u ever stay for a while longer? DO u even want to stay? will u ever lie?
do u ever say the truth? do you ever speak whats REALLY on that calmly insane mind of yours? will i ever have the god damn patience with my own self to NOT ask and wonder bout so many question of stupidity???
~i wish to be sane, as my loveR is. i wish US to be real. i wish us to live happily ever on. i wish for faith in OUR being..from you, that is.
+i know u love me, u say it all the time. its time to shut up and show me.+
....and i'll wish you a good night. <3