(no subject)
staring at your reflection every day
can make or break my heart away
when you won't listen to what's hard for me to say
those tear stained eyes can make me feel so sad
and once again we're further away from what we never had
so why should I take your hand when you can't promise happy endings?
just run away with so much left to share
it's just not enough
when we're so much more than friends
we're much too young to throw away our cares
[those words aren't mine. they are Amber Pacific's.]
oh, if only I could make sense. if only I could write enough so that my feelings came through my fingers and keyboard onto this meaningless screen. if only I could really tell someone. if only I could show someone the war my heart and head have every second of every day. but, I'm not capable of that. as a human, I'm destined to make errors. I'm doomed to repeat mistakes. and I have. and I will. the war rages on. what is right and what is wrong, what I want and what I need. the war rages on, and I make the first move. I am the enemy. and I am powerless to stop it.