This is weird...
This is harder than any human death i've ever had to deal with... i don't know why... maybe it's because he lived here... maybe it's because he had that innocence that made him love everyone no matter what... but this is so hard... i have 2 huge tests tomorrow and i'm having trouble focusing... i keep hearing him, and seeing him, and feeling him here... i think i'm going to sleep on the couch tonight... how can i sleep in the bed he so loyally slept next to me in every single night... his hair is everywhere... his presence is everywhere... how can he be gone? how can i only have one cat now? can i have him back please?