again
so as many of you remember, almost exactly two years ago i lost my grandmother to cancer... since then i have been very disappointed with that side of the family and haven't spent as much time with them... i also did not call my grandpa or see him as often as i should have, considering i love him to death and i happen to be his favorite grandchild as everyone in my family will admit... well on wednesday, he fell in his home and hit his head, when he was taken to the hospital they found that he had a brain hemmhorage and was pronounced braindead... well they took him off the respirator and he died thursday afternoon... For the past two years i have known that i should have seen him and talked to him more often because i knew i would regret it, as his health has been declining for the past 5, yet i never did... perhaps it was that it was too hard to talk to him having lost my grandma, or maybe i was preparing myself for this end result, by distancing myself from him... well the latter didn't happen, considering he partially raised me... i don't really regret it as much as i expected to though... death sucks... at least, because so many people have no power they come to white castle and they need me to work overtime i have less time to realize that he's gone and thus less time to mourn... i know he's better off because he has been in so much pain and he missed my grandma so badly...