i suck
well, i've officially been rejected by my dream job for this week, writing and doing statistical analysis at baseballhq.com. this means one of three things:
- i don't write well
- i don't do math well
- i suck at conforming to corporate standards
hopefully i'm stuck on number 3. anyway, i went home last weekend, and on saturday night my stepbrother andrew told me he was disappointed that we had lived together for a year and never shared a drink. so we went to the balcony, i took a shot of johnny walker black label, and he told me everything he knows about the world, things they don't teach you in school. andrew's been working as a mechanic since he was 16, and he's learned a great deal about how to work his ass off to impress his superiors, while simultaneously learning from those around him and filtering out the bullshit from clueless people. we determined that my current, shrug-your-shoulders, take-what-comes-to-you plan for life is flawed, and that i need to figure out what i want and attack it aggressively.
in addition to learning a lot of practical advice, i also bonded with him. it had been awhile since i'd had a long talk with someone where i bonded with them (although i had another one the next day in the car ride back). deep conversations are really good for forging friendships; i need to have them more often.
so what's my plan of attack now? is it possible to instantly shift my personality from follower to decision-maker, from passive to aggressive and bold? the jury is still out on this one. but it's definitely a long-term goal of mine.
what else is new...i've developed a ddr addiction, so i suppose i am half asian after all. at least it's more healthy than my last addiction, beef and cheddar croissants. i joined the seinfeld and simpsons clubs here, but i don't know if i'll go to any meetings. card club membership is down again this year, so i may cancel it due to lack of interest. german sucks, math sucks, atmos sucks, journalism is okay. and...i'm spent.
- i don't write well
- i don't do math well
- i suck at conforming to corporate standards
hopefully i'm stuck on number 3. anyway, i went home last weekend, and on saturday night my stepbrother andrew told me he was disappointed that we had lived together for a year and never shared a drink. so we went to the balcony, i took a shot of johnny walker black label, and he told me everything he knows about the world, things they don't teach you in school. andrew's been working as a mechanic since he was 16, and he's learned a great deal about how to work his ass off to impress his superiors, while simultaneously learning from those around him and filtering out the bullshit from clueless people. we determined that my current, shrug-your-shoulders, take-what-comes-to-you plan for life is flawed, and that i need to figure out what i want and attack it aggressively.
in addition to learning a lot of practical advice, i also bonded with him. it had been awhile since i'd had a long talk with someone where i bonded with them (although i had another one the next day in the car ride back). deep conversations are really good for forging friendships; i need to have them more often.
so what's my plan of attack now? is it possible to instantly shift my personality from follower to decision-maker, from passive to aggressive and bold? the jury is still out on this one. but it's definitely a long-term goal of mine.
what else is new...i've developed a ddr addiction, so i suppose i am half asian after all. at least it's more healthy than my last addiction, beef and cheddar croissants. i joined the seinfeld and simpsons clubs here, but i don't know if i'll go to any meetings. card club membership is down again this year, so i may cancel it due to lack of interest. german sucks, math sucks, atmos sucks, journalism is okay. and...i'm spent.