November 14 - Hospital Entry #5
Manda is here getting Subway for me right now. She really is a good friend
It's quiet introspective times like this that tend to scare me from some reason. She's back...
She just went to go see the babies. It was nice to see her eyes light up when we thought I could go with her for a minute. But then I remembered I have to stay on this floor.
What is it that is eating at me now? It's neither good nor bad, just... empty?
Manda said that Tuckey had a hard time believing that I was cool with the Ron/Manda thing. Odd. I think there's a part of me that finds it odd, too.
Do I miss people? Is that it? Have I isolated myself enough now? Do I need their company on the coming cold nights of Winter? I think that may sum it up. I don't want to spend the Winter alone.
I truly love this time of year. The shorter days, the wonderfully long twilights, and the way the sky seems so low and close at night. I'm just tired of not having anyone to share it with.
Winter is a mysteriously wonderful time, but it is even more wonderful in the company of another. I've spent winters with someone before. I do know what I'm missing.
Am I pushing everyone away because I feel I can't take care of them because I can't take care of myself right now? Well, technically, I can take care of myself, but... you get the idea.
I think I'll have a bit of Subway and read the paper a bit now.
17:40
It's quiet introspective times like this that tend to scare me from some reason. She's back...
She just went to go see the babies. It was nice to see her eyes light up when we thought I could go with her for a minute. But then I remembered I have to stay on this floor.
What is it that is eating at me now? It's neither good nor bad, just... empty?
Manda said that Tuckey had a hard time believing that I was cool with the Ron/Manda thing. Odd. I think there's a part of me that finds it odd, too.
Do I miss people? Is that it? Have I isolated myself enough now? Do I need their company on the coming cold nights of Winter? I think that may sum it up. I don't want to spend the Winter alone.
I truly love this time of year. The shorter days, the wonderfully long twilights, and the way the sky seems so low and close at night. I'm just tired of not having anyone to share it with.
Winter is a mysteriously wonderful time, but it is even more wonderful in the company of another. I've spent winters with someone before. I do know what I'm missing.
Am I pushing everyone away because I feel I can't take care of them because I can't take care of myself right now? Well, technically, I can take care of myself, but... you get the idea.
I think I'll have a bit of Subway and read the paper a bit now.
17:40