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"It seems as though i have a really hard time letting go of people and objects in my life. Even if it would be for the better it still never gets done when it should be."
Right now that’s 100% true for me.
i have been confused about 2 people for a long time, i haven’t been that sure how i feel about them. i hate having to cut people out of my life but some times it just needs to be done to better my self, and its not like it was a real loss to them either. the reason you ask? Well i have been friends with two people for a long time. (Were going to call the girl lemon and the boy lime...oh the citrus)
i met lemon in grade 9 and we were good friends ever since. Sure there had been lots of fights and i did take them to heart and course they hurt...but I guess that’s what happens with friends. in the summer lemon and i had encountered a falling out (there were others too but that’s not the point here). One day in msn land there was a very disturbing conversation. I’m not going to be quoting it but I will stress how much it had hurt me. It was the only thing ever said to me that I haven’t forgotten and cant get out of my head even to this day. (its been a few months) some of the things that were said to me are still stuck in my head and i cant get them out. i think they actually broke my heart, no…FUCKING CRUSHED it! i know it sounds sappy and emo but whatever its true and i don’t care. Whenever i see lemon or talk to her that’s all i can think of. for a while i tried to just block it out and try being friends with her again. it didn’t work. i kept thinking about it. Then i had made jokes about it to try and deal with it "don’t beat around the bush..fucking stab the bush! Get that bush blood!". That was a mistake as well. She says that she didn’t mean it and was just mad...but when people are mad they say stupid little things. not things like what she had said. Those actually made sense and pretty much put the piece’s of the puzzle together from over the years.
Moral of story one? -Don’t keep going back to people who have fucked you over numerous times before-
Now the long story of lime-e-boy. we became friends in early grade 10. Good times. After school we would sit around with a few others doing nothing and then head up town for more nothing. but it was rad. we were kinda like brother and sister. But not a fighting one. Lime WAS rad. we casually made fun of each other and i meant nothing....but when you constantly make fun of someone for 2.5 years it starts to hurt, and its not like it was stupid little jokes. They actually got worse over time. Sorry but I don’t like putting up with shit like that. i have to say that I was stupid for taking that crap for so long and doing pretty much nothing about it. I know they meant nothing to him but they meant a lot to me. A LOT! Fucking hell when someone says fuck off or stop it, it means that don’t wanna hear it anymore. Near the end i just started to ignore the comments. since the annoying jokes are all that that person has to offer I stated to ignore him too.
moral of lime story? -don’t take shit from people-
so for my conclusion....lemon and lime are out of my life. they can go have their citrus fun together while i stay happy from no mental abuse! woot, life is sweet.
Right now that’s 100% true for me.
i have been confused about 2 people for a long time, i haven’t been that sure how i feel about them. i hate having to cut people out of my life but some times it just needs to be done to better my self, and its not like it was a real loss to them either. the reason you ask? Well i have been friends with two people for a long time. (Were going to call the girl lemon and the boy lime...oh the citrus)
i met lemon in grade 9 and we were good friends ever since. Sure there had been lots of fights and i did take them to heart and course they hurt...but I guess that’s what happens with friends. in the summer lemon and i had encountered a falling out (there were others too but that’s not the point here). One day in msn land there was a very disturbing conversation. I’m not going to be quoting it but I will stress how much it had hurt me. It was the only thing ever said to me that I haven’t forgotten and cant get out of my head even to this day. (its been a few months) some of the things that were said to me are still stuck in my head and i cant get them out. i think they actually broke my heart, no…FUCKING CRUSHED it! i know it sounds sappy and emo but whatever its true and i don’t care. Whenever i see lemon or talk to her that’s all i can think of. for a while i tried to just block it out and try being friends with her again. it didn’t work. i kept thinking about it. Then i had made jokes about it to try and deal with it "don’t beat around the bush..fucking stab the bush! Get that bush blood!". That was a mistake as well. She says that she didn’t mean it and was just mad...but when people are mad they say stupid little things. not things like what she had said. Those actually made sense and pretty much put the piece’s of the puzzle together from over the years.
Moral of story one? -Don’t keep going back to people who have fucked you over numerous times before-
Now the long story of lime-e-boy. we became friends in early grade 10. Good times. After school we would sit around with a few others doing nothing and then head up town for more nothing. but it was rad. we were kinda like brother and sister. But not a fighting one. Lime WAS rad. we casually made fun of each other and i meant nothing....but when you constantly make fun of someone for 2.5 years it starts to hurt, and its not like it was stupid little jokes. They actually got worse over time. Sorry but I don’t like putting up with shit like that. i have to say that I was stupid for taking that crap for so long and doing pretty much nothing about it. I know they meant nothing to him but they meant a lot to me. A LOT! Fucking hell when someone says fuck off or stop it, it means that don’t wanna hear it anymore. Near the end i just started to ignore the comments. since the annoying jokes are all that that person has to offer I stated to ignore him too.
moral of lime story? -don’t take shit from people-
so for my conclusion....lemon and lime are out of my life. they can go have their citrus fun together while i stay happy from no mental abuse! woot, life is sweet.