Tired and unmotivated...
tiredness is ruling my life.
I'm constantly tired and I never seem to get enough sleep. gah.
I want christmas break like now. I'm so fucking sick of school and taking tests and doing homework and dealing with all the bullshit.
ugh I just can't stand it. it's driving me insane.
there is nothing in this fucking house to eat and I'm so sick of being here I could scream. the animals, my parents, everything is just fucking making me annoyed and pissed off right now.
I talked to Nick again and tried to sort out all the stuff we had sorta talked about. We talked I got out almost all of what I wanted to say. But it didn't really do anything. I dunno. it's confusing like everything thing else. what he said pretty much made me feel like I was his backup option or something around those lines. but fuck that. I am nobody's backup. I do not just fucking waste my time trying to go after something that might not be there. I've given up doing that. what's the fucking point anymore? I have too much shit going on to pursue something that's not going to happen. I dropped Kyle and Matt because of it and I'll be damned if it's going to happen again. being friends and everything is fine, and when he's good and over with his girlfriend for sure, then perhaps I'd talk about something more. but until then I'm not even going to bother.
fuck boys. they are like drugs. they make you go though an emotional rollercoaster. but the high is unlike anything else.so you continue you it even though you know you shouldn't.
again. fuck boys.
I need to go try and attack my anat. homework. ugh I hate that class with the passion of a 1000 suns. it's pointless and stupid...and klinger expects us to know 653476855416551685456 different things that we never learned when he first taught them.
I'm constantly tired and I never seem to get enough sleep. gah.
I want christmas break like now. I'm so fucking sick of school and taking tests and doing homework and dealing with all the bullshit.
ugh I just can't stand it. it's driving me insane.
there is nothing in this fucking house to eat and I'm so sick of being here I could scream. the animals, my parents, everything is just fucking making me annoyed and pissed off right now.
I talked to Nick again and tried to sort out all the stuff we had sorta talked about. We talked I got out almost all of what I wanted to say. But it didn't really do anything. I dunno. it's confusing like everything thing else. what he said pretty much made me feel like I was his backup option or something around those lines. but fuck that. I am nobody's backup. I do not just fucking waste my time trying to go after something that might not be there. I've given up doing that. what's the fucking point anymore? I have too much shit going on to pursue something that's not going to happen. I dropped Kyle and Matt because of it and I'll be damned if it's going to happen again. being friends and everything is fine, and when he's good and over with his girlfriend for sure, then perhaps I'd talk about something more. but until then I'm not even going to bother.
fuck boys. they are like drugs. they make you go though an emotional rollercoaster. but the high is unlike anything else.so you continue you it even though you know you shouldn't.
again. fuck boys.
I need to go try and attack my anat. homework. ugh I hate that class with the passion of a 1000 suns. it's pointless and stupid...and klinger expects us to know 653476855416551685456 different things that we never learned when he first taught them.