To Sterling:
she is beautiful, loving, caring, and good hearted. just the thought of her in my head makes my day. shes an angel amongst sinful humans. shes my light, my happiness, my inspiration, my infatuation. she makes my face light up anytime i see her, or she calls, or anything that has to do with her. she was my first love, shes my only love, and even if she isn't my only love, shes the only one that i want. my feelings toward her are unexplainable. there has been other girls, but none like her. every girl that i even think about liking cannot even compare to her greatness. find one little flaw, or one thing in them that is not like her, and i can't stand them. im the one that messed this up, im the one that did these things to myself, and i truly think that i will have never made a worse mistake, because i had what i wanted, and i gave it up. the thought of that makes me sick to my stomach, i can't even imagine what was going through my head, and i know we had our arguements and fights, and i know i was the one at fault, i realize and regret that every single day and night of my life. i need her more than i have ever needed anyone, i need to lay down at night and have that happy thought of her in my head, just knowing that she loves me, and im the guy for her, and that i totally feel mutual to the whole situation, knowing is wonderful. but i want you to know that when you run out of hands to use, i'll give you mine, and when you run out of a heart to feel with, mine will be beating for you with every second of every day. my love for you is as strong as it has ever been Sterling, and i want you to know that, and, that i feel the way now, just as i did 8 months ago. my love has never died for you and it never will. i will always need your heart in my life and i will love you forever. this is what i have been holding back from you and i have to let it out.