I SUCK AT LIFE!
so here is my update... i broke up with warren...i cheated on him with this guy will. I told him tuesday flat that i cheated on him...i feel like shit and life sucks right now. He asked me if i was going to stay sober and i sayed yes and he said i guess thats all that matters. He asked if i could hug him because he still really cares about me and he said i he would try not to hold this against me but i was crying way to hard to even touch him. The thing is i wasnt willing to even work shit out with warren so i just sabotoged my situation. I wish there was somehting i could have said to make him feel better and for him to understand but there was nothing i could say. I pray for him and i know that he is a big boy. I told him i was sorry for leading him on and noy being honest about my doubts from the beginning and he was like "yea you had me going...i thought we had something good but i guess not" i wanted to fall over and die.Life just sux right now but i know i can get through this...i know i am strong enough. The fucked up thing is that i dont feel remorse nor do i feel guilty and i know i should but i dont its like i just went numb after i had sex with will. I am really good at turning my feelings off like a light switch. I cant cry and i just cant feel, i am just so fucking numb!Oh i went saw BONE THUGS N' HARMONY on wednesday.....it was so fucking awesome.I have 5 months on Sunday~