Oh, My
Well, just as I thought life was settling down, Mom is ill again. After the big family trip to Chicago last weekend, which was clearly at the very very limits of what was possible for her (and only managed with complete around the clock care and attention) she went home and became acutely ill. Is it a bug? Is it cancer? Is it dehydration? Is it something that will pass? Who knows? She has stomach pain and a whole lot of trouble breathing. Now she also has lots of morphine and various other meds....and as of today, she's also signed up for Hospice, which also means she's no longer seeking treatment for her cancer, or getting physical therapy.
And, she's too weak and exhausted to manage a phone call with me, although I gave it a good try last night. So, I've been communicating mostly with and through my brother.
This week is the opening of my show in Minneapolis....a week later is the conference I'm presenting at in Tennessee...I had ideas of a project I wanted to do in September while preparing my presentation....but we're back to the Cancer dance, where from one moment to the next I have no idea what will happen.
And I suppose its a surprise to nobody but me, but yikes!! I'm awash in a huge holy mess of mixed up feelings about all this.
And, she's too weak and exhausted to manage a phone call with me, although I gave it a good try last night. So, I've been communicating mostly with and through my brother.
This week is the opening of my show in Minneapolis....a week later is the conference I'm presenting at in Tennessee...I had ideas of a project I wanted to do in September while preparing my presentation....but we're back to the Cancer dance, where from one moment to the next I have no idea what will happen.
And I suppose its a surprise to nobody but me, but yikes!! I'm awash in a huge holy mess of mixed up feelings about all this.