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UGH!!! I fucken hate the fact that I am always trying with her family and she wont try with mine. I have to go to a graduation to a lady who dont like me. And its pissing me off cause I dont want to go I rather tell her ass something and tell her to fuck off. Stupid little money grubber. I hate the fact that I have to get upi before my gf even when she has work and should get up. Instead she tells me can you be a peach a make me something to eat. But you have to get up before me. Oh yeah you need to go do things with my mother even though she tells you all this crap and tells you what to do Even though I know you are grown up. I been like this for years yet I am doing all this for what LOVE?! I rather be alone then cause its not worth it. Than to here that she just wants to be friends for her birthday and funny enough i said yes. For what I dont know. I think I have stupid written across my forehaead. Cause I guess no one knows we are together for year! It hurts and all I can tell her dont be mad at me if I do something too. Dont be mad if I go home cause I am not going to stand around.These people are not my friends you know this. I am going to be so out of place its not even funny. I hate the fact that she just wants to see me as a friend. Then why am I here then? Just the maid who cleans the house who cooks and does the dirty work. The person who pays most of the bills. I have no money and its not fair! I am sick of always paying the bills. That I have to pick up more shifts are kidding me?! I work enough as is. Lets see you work. I am just going to rub it in her face. I am going to say really I work my days off while you call in or you miss around with your friends. I have no friends!? I do just not the friends you have. I cant fucken stand them sometimes or I cant stand your fucken mom and the little comments that she makes. You know I bite my tongue cause I love you and I gurss what I am not giong to do it anymore. I am done.