a letter to someone of my past
I hated you for a long time. You have no idea of the number of sleepless nights I have endured. While I try to sleep, memories show on my inner eyelids, like home movies families show at gatherings on the wall of the living room. It's like me standing outside of my old young me, watching what you did.
I have told people what you did too.
Yeah -
I would wish the most grusome things to you, but it did me no good. It instead set me back even farther; letting myself be controlled by anger.
I don't have any strong relationships with any males, not even with my father who calls on weekends. I shouldn't say that. My friend Gary is someone I consider close. Anyway that's not the point. The point is that I am scared to death of men. If you hurt me, and were family - someone to depend on, blood; what is some other guy capable of? That's what I had thought at least.
The years you've set me back! How angry I was. The fear that filled me which made me act out. You have no idea.
I also hear you have children. I have actually seen pictures. Have you got help?
I have a voice. I can whisper. I can talk. I can sure yell and scream too. I will never be silenced. If you do anything to your kids -
So I'm going to end this with a quote from a movie. Two quotes in one.
"So I guess this is where I tell you what I learned... my conclusion right?Well, my conclusion is: Hate is baggage. Life's too short to be pissed off all the time. It's just not worth it. Derek says it's always good to end a paper with a quote. He says someone else has already said it best. So if you can't top it, steal it from them and go out strong. So I picked a guy I thought you'd like. 'We're not enemies, but friends. Through passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection. The mystic chords of memory will swell when again touched, as surely they will be, by the better angels of our nature."
I wish not to know you, but I forgive you.
I Remain to you As:
Kathleen Gabrielle McKenna
I have told people what you did too.
Yeah -
I would wish the most grusome things to you, but it did me no good. It instead set me back even farther; letting myself be controlled by anger.
I don't have any strong relationships with any males, not even with my father who calls on weekends. I shouldn't say that. My friend Gary is someone I consider close. Anyway that's not the point. The point is that I am scared to death of men. If you hurt me, and were family - someone to depend on, blood; what is some other guy capable of? That's what I had thought at least.
The years you've set me back! How angry I was. The fear that filled me which made me act out. You have no idea.
I also hear you have children. I have actually seen pictures. Have you got help?
I have a voice. I can whisper. I can talk. I can sure yell and scream too. I will never be silenced. If you do anything to your kids -
So I'm going to end this with a quote from a movie. Two quotes in one.
"So I guess this is where I tell you what I learned... my conclusion right?Well, my conclusion is: Hate is baggage. Life's too short to be pissed off all the time. It's just not worth it. Derek says it's always good to end a paper with a quote. He says someone else has already said it best. So if you can't top it, steal it from them and go out strong. So I picked a guy I thought you'd like. 'We're not enemies, but friends. Through passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection. The mystic chords of memory will swell when again touched, as surely they will be, by the better angels of our nature."
I wish not to know you, but I forgive you.
I Remain to you As:
Kathleen Gabrielle McKenna