Just needed to write
The honeymoon period of living here is over. They say you crash when culture shock hits but that isn't happening. I don't think this is culture shock, just missing my old life a little. Not even that, but having alone time. I do not get the "my" time that I want. There is always something to be done, cleaning, cooking, shopping, teaching, staying late for work to show that I will, not that I do anything. Here the people are fine with constant stimulation, they have noise constantly, but I can't handle that. I want a quiet spot, must find one. Even my apartment is not quiet because the walls are thin so I can hear people passing, and the cars, all day long.
I'm trying to study my Japanese lessons and they are not going well. I'm falling behind and I'm only 4 weeks in. It is frustrating me and stressing me out so much! My teacher tells us one time then we repeat, suddenly I'm supposed to know it. I understand she wants to give us as much material in each class because we are paying for these lessons and we only have 50 minutes, but I can't learn to tell time, my numbers, greetings, the first 10 letters and two grammer rules in one lesson. Call me stupid or slow but it is just to much for me. I'm crying over homework again...I have a fucking degree, this is not what I want. I think I may just have to buy the Rosetta Stone and do my own thing.
Ugh I'm tired of not talking like a normal person all day, hearing people shout and laugh, then hearing my name, and more laughing. I know it is the adjustment but it is wearing me thin. Back to studying I guess, stupid fucking characters.
I'm trying to study my Japanese lessons and they are not going well. I'm falling behind and I'm only 4 weeks in. It is frustrating me and stressing me out so much! My teacher tells us one time then we repeat, suddenly I'm supposed to know it. I understand she wants to give us as much material in each class because we are paying for these lessons and we only have 50 minutes, but I can't learn to tell time, my numbers, greetings, the first 10 letters and two grammer rules in one lesson. Call me stupid or slow but it is just to much for me. I'm crying over homework again...I have a fucking degree, this is not what I want. I think I may just have to buy the Rosetta Stone and do my own thing.
Ugh I'm tired of not talking like a normal person all day, hearing people shout and laugh, then hearing my name, and more laughing. I know it is the adjustment but it is wearing me thin. Back to studying I guess, stupid fucking characters.