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B/p three times today.
99.4, post purge. I was 92.8 Wednesday. So nearly 7 pounds. I don't know what to do. I am so sick of these wild fluctuations.
Help, help, help. I wish someone would step in to tell me that I need more help. I can't "let myself" get help because I feel like I would just be a whining annoyance. I want someone with an objective perspective to say, "Gee, I think your quality of life warrants some intensive help. It is worth whatever it takes." I can't give myself permission to get more help because I see it as a sign of too much self-love. And too much self-love for me, a person with no redeeming charming characteristics, is no-no.
I want to die in my sleep.
99.4, post purge. I was 92.8 Wednesday. So nearly 7 pounds. I don't know what to do. I am so sick of these wild fluctuations.
Help, help, help. I wish someone would step in to tell me that I need more help. I can't "let myself" get help because I feel like I would just be a whining annoyance. I want someone with an objective perspective to say, "Gee, I think your quality of life warrants some intensive help. It is worth whatever it takes." I can't give myself permission to get more help because I see it as a sign of too much self-love. And too much self-love for me, a person with no redeeming charming characteristics, is no-no.
I want to die in my sleep.