it's been an odd time (but time enough.......for an update)
so its been a couple weeks since my last post here...at least since a post that i made public....san francisco was really fun...so much happened in such a short period of time it's kind of hard to describe how i felt for the duration of the trip...overall, however, that is a very good thing...
the drive up there was actually amazing..not sure why, something about the way me, erik, and leyla interacted...i've always said that it's kind of rare to find people you can stand to be stuck in a car for eight hours with...luckily, it wasn't labored at all....
the trip, as well, was amazing...a lot of drinking and whatnot (and watching a mighty wind) with friends...unfortunately amanda wasn't there and i didn't get to see her until the last half of monday before we left. but, as short as it was, it was nice to chill on her roof and talk about life for a little bit....i guess the only criticism i would have is that there were just a little too many people crowded in daniel and amanda's place for the weekend...don't get me wrong, i had tons of fun...i just kinda wish i wasn't the one on the floor all the time for sleeping....
but, that's a minor side note...
the only other thing about that weekend is that, since leyla and erik are actually together now, it was odd, kinda cool, to watch a new relationship begin...it's been a long time since i've felt that way towards another person..but watching them made me feel comforted somehow...to a degree...
i'm finally kind of sitting down and realizing how much has changed in the past few months...the past few weeks even...especially after the gathering at heather's place...i finally got some real closure going and heard somethings i needed to hear straight from the source...and, although i feel kind of crappy today, my mood as a result has been a lot better....although (and hopefully this won't last too much longer) i do miss that feeling of companionship so much....like i've said though, being around erik and leyla and their new thing together was comforting in a way...
nothing else to report...i guess it's time again to just wait and see...go on with my routine...forget some things, remember some things, and anticipate the rest....
the drive up there was actually amazing..not sure why, something about the way me, erik, and leyla interacted...i've always said that it's kind of rare to find people you can stand to be stuck in a car for eight hours with...luckily, it wasn't labored at all....
the trip, as well, was amazing...a lot of drinking and whatnot (and watching a mighty wind) with friends...unfortunately amanda wasn't there and i didn't get to see her until the last half of monday before we left. but, as short as it was, it was nice to chill on her roof and talk about life for a little bit....i guess the only criticism i would have is that there were just a little too many people crowded in daniel and amanda's place for the weekend...don't get me wrong, i had tons of fun...i just kinda wish i wasn't the one on the floor all the time for sleeping....
but, that's a minor side note...
the only other thing about that weekend is that, since leyla and erik are actually together now, it was odd, kinda cool, to watch a new relationship begin...it's been a long time since i've felt that way towards another person..but watching them made me feel comforted somehow...to a degree...
i'm finally kind of sitting down and realizing how much has changed in the past few months...the past few weeks even...especially after the gathering at heather's place...i finally got some real closure going and heard somethings i needed to hear straight from the source...and, although i feel kind of crappy today, my mood as a result has been a lot better....although (and hopefully this won't last too much longer) i do miss that feeling of companionship so much....like i've said though, being around erik and leyla and their new thing together was comforting in a way...
nothing else to report...i guess it's time again to just wait and see...go on with my routine...forget some things, remember some things, and anticipate the rest....