I needed to vent..

[glass_is_full]

I was afraid to take the leap again after everything that happened in the past. I just thought to myself, "people are different, give em a chance" People are different, but my feelings remain the same. I've had so many emotions this week its been too much of a roller coaster.  Sunday I was in Vandercook with the Fushi's (my roommate). I loved being there adn seeing everyone at Shelly's grad party, it made me miss SVSU even more. (Who actually misses school?) Monday night I drove home, and boy it gave me a lot to think about.  As I was listening to my CDs I just kept thinking how happy I am that I have someone who really loves me. Someone that I really missed driving 2 hrs by myself and hes outta state, I started to cry for no reason at all really, just stupid thoughts gettin to me. Tuesday I had to work forever. After work everyone said I was a grump, but nothing happened for me to be one so I dunno. Just something weird was in the air and I was a bit grouchy. Wednesday was the best day I had a week, and thats only because I was approved for my medical insurance which means the world to me seeing as I'm a medical emergency 24/7. I had to work for a few hours,and then had league. Thursday I was a grouch again. I was upset because Piper cut my hours for Thursday which was a good 90 i needed. Manda and I went shopping instead, then I went over to Cateys for a bon fire. It was fun, but we just talked our normal talks. Ended up staying the night there..well we stayed up till 6am..then got Panda Express that afternoon. I had to work Friday night which was alright..again I was in a bad mood for reasons. Megan and I worked out plans for going to the Country Music Fest.. which made my day great Sat morning. We are doing that annually lol. It was hella hot tho! We had to leave early bc I had to be to work at 4:30.. sorry guys... I was pretty much in the sun from, 9am-6:30pm. Yet I barely got burned.. nice tan tho. Got the phone call I'd been waiting for with news I didn;t want to hear.......
Sometimes I just think I push things aside too easily, but I really see no point in dwelling in the past, its been done, time to move on right? Not make a big deal out of something that cant be changed. Thats what I've always thought. I'm irratated and disappointed, but theres nothing I can do. I almost always forgive, but I will never forget. I'm ending this because I'm starting to tear up again..if it wasnt 1am and gas was free, I'd just drive my worries away...but for now.......
I need sleep, tomorrow will be interesting. (Happy Father's Day...blah)