a final return
so i said i would be back to this, but i never had much to say. i'm not as witty or creative as others and i don't have meaningful epiphanies or happenings but i'll just type and see what comes out.
i've actually been under the most stress that i have been in my entire schooling period here. in a single week i had 2research papers due and 2presentations. now that those are done and out of my hands, i have to REDO one of the research papers because the prof is literally a horribly biased person. like yesterday in class, during somebody's presentation, she talked and described more things about his research than he did. she did all of his work with him during the process, so therefore he really didn't do anything. yet i'm given a single day to put together a presentation and then she says i have to redo my paper because i "followed instructions too closely". too closely? is that possible? so i have to redo this because i gave you exactly what you asked for? wtf....
through all of this, there was only one person that was constantly there for me, always seeming to be around whenever i needed it. she has been here for me like noone else has too. what's crazy is that she doesn't even go to school with me, but rather a few hours away. she just kind of fell into my life at random and i have never been more thankful for somebody. no matter how bad i feel, what i'm feeling, what i'm thinking, my intoxication level, my problems, etc....she has been there to talk me through them. things can seem to be the worst to me and she will make it better.
she makes me feel better about my life constantly and offers to help without asking anything in return. every time we talk, i learn something new about her or find something else we have in common, which is actually a whole lot. as cliche as it sounds, she is probobly the best influence in my life and i'm thankful for it. also, she is the most honest and trusting person i have ever met. we can just say what we feel about anything and keep it between ourselves. i've told her things i wouldn't and haven't told anyone else, that is how much i trust her. and when have something to say, we don't sugar-coat it or half-ass around it, we straight up say it.
i often wish that we lived closer to one another or that our schedules allowed us to visit the other at somepoint. it's mainly my sporting schedule that gets in the way, so i blame it on that.
so i just went with it and let my fingers flow while turning my mind off and i just wrote an entire entry dedicated to my very good friend from somewhere else. i guess that just means she means a hell of a lot to me and i felt i should give her some credit and let her know. so....thank you.