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I'm back. I was gonna stay at my uncle's for 2 nights but his gf is a little scary. Well now since my mom knows that I don't have to deal with this shit anymore, she's been very nice. I ended up smoking while I was gone (I know, it's bad for me) It was either drink, smoke weed or cigs. I couldn't manange stealing any booze, I was far away from any of Sabrin'a dealers (+ that shit is nasty) so I stuck with the cigs. I only had 2 1/2 for 2 days. I smoked them out in the garage so no one would catch me. I emailed Lindsey telling her everything that happened and how I don't really want her to tell Curtis cause I feel like i've disapointed him. At school he would always tell me how he was gonna quit and how bad it is and how smart I was for staying away from them..... I just hope he understands that I needed a stress reliever. If killing myself slowly with smokes will do that... then I guess i'm killing myself slowly. I know there's people out there who will say that I could have done anything else but smoke to help with stress but the thing is I use to smoke so I knew how it felt before and being stressed/pissed and whatever brought back the urge to have a cigarette. I'm not gonna turn big time smoker here cause:
#1 - no money for smokes
#2 - my mom/dad would eventually find out
#3 - not even old enough to buy them (if i had money)
#4 - i really want to quit for good one day
#1 - no money for smokes
#2 - my mom/dad would eventually find out
#3 - not even old enough to buy them (if i had money)
#4 - i really want to quit for good one day