why i don't deserve to live:
forgetting to put my oil paint pallet away and then my cat walking on it and getting red paint all over the carpet once... can be blamed on my crazy cat.
forgetting to put my oil paint pallet away and then my cat walking on it and getting brown paint all over the carpet again... is my stupid fault.
forgetting to put my oil paint pallet away and then my cat walking on it and getting blue and yellow paint all over the carpet for the third time in two days.... makes me a fucking idiot who should just kill herself. Or I can just wait for my mom to come home and kill me.