scum-suckingly, time-wastingly, gut-wrenchinly beautiful.

[glamourwound]

heat is deplorable. having less than two weeks of school left is not. what a bittersweet victory. my daunting lack of savoir-faire is getting me down. my timid nature has cast me into a well of perpetual loneliness. my conversations with others usually consist of: hello... i'm okay, how are you?... okay, seeya. i guess i just have no wit. not that i'm not a real smartass, when the opportunity presents itself.. i suppose i inflict the loneliness thing on myself. i've grown to be quite comfortable with it, and find myself searching for it when i'm with groups of people. someone told me that when more than two people surround me, i tend to clam up, and be the observer for the group. it's a blessing and a curse, i suppose.

i've been irritable as all hell lately, and this rancid, agonizing heat isn't helping matters. it's only 86 degrees or so.. but i'm a winter-loving eukaryote, and i want things to be nice and cold again. my blood temperature is elevated, i think, because my body is constantly warm. it's pleasant for other people, cause i'm basically a walking heater for anyone who cares to hug me, but i feel like a rotting corpse whenever the sun comes out. i must be a vampire.. yes, that's it..

i'm gonna go lay in front of a fan (which is futile because the air coming through the fan is just as hot), so, i'll see you around humanoids.

au revoir.