this is my last defense
so my life is falling apart, only this time it's for real.
let's recap:
last night, got really drunk. tried to punch the boy that made me cry. missed. got really upset because he went home with another boy. went by my ultimate crush's room (conveniently next door to the boy who made me cry). kinda unloaded, almost cried (if i could). he walked me back to my room because i didn't think i could make it alone.
my parents sat me down for a talk (they are out here visiting). i'm not going to come back next year. repeat: THERE IS NO WAY IN HELL THAT I WILL BE IN COLLEGE NEXT YEAR
i have so much work to do, and i don't even see the point. nothing is ever, ever going to be worth it. i should probably just kill myself and get it over with.
on the bright side, i won my conference meet. but it doesn't matter.
let's recap:
last night, got really drunk. tried to punch the boy that made me cry. missed. got really upset because he went home with another boy. went by my ultimate crush's room (conveniently next door to the boy who made me cry). kinda unloaded, almost cried (if i could). he walked me back to my room because i didn't think i could make it alone.
my parents sat me down for a talk (they are out here visiting). i'm not going to come back next year. repeat: THERE IS NO WAY IN HELL THAT I WILL BE IN COLLEGE NEXT YEAR
i have so much work to do, and i don't even see the point. nothing is ever, ever going to be worth it. i should probably just kill myself and get it over with.
on the bright side, i won my conference meet. but it doesn't matter.