What's the deal with my brain, why am I so obviously insane

[glamorous_x]

  So, I've gone about a month without my computer. And I wasn't too concerned about it, except for my lack of music. Now I have my spanking new computer which pwns basically. But that isn't what this is really about, so moving on. My grandfather has yet again gone to the hospital and been put under the knife. My mom is worried that he's too eager to come home and will have a relapse; yet of course my uncles differ and think he should leave. Men.. I think it's becoming clear that the stomachs and digestive systems of my family aren't supposed to be normal. They believe they found an ulcer in my grandpa, therefore now I'll be going back to the specialist and hospital most likely. Let me tell you. I can't wait. Ugh. The house is too quiet with him not here, and my mom always at work or out doing whatnot. And I'm usually not home much as well. Something is wrong in this family but I feel like there's some closed door keeping me from finding out. My concentration is low and I need to focus more, but can't seem to go through with it. I wouldn't doubt I've become boring and quieter than ususual. I've also been horribly lazy about going to the gym for the past two weeks and can start to feel it. AP English has to be about the most entertaining part of my classes. Sometimes I feel like an ass with my ideas or what I think but we're actually reading things I enjoy and it's such a nice change. Tomorrow we have a field trip to the DIA; I'll have Han and Tif with me which makes me happy. It would almost be GxC takes on the DIA, but Claire won't be there. Boo you whore. I'm done talking and have nothing else I want to put here thus this would be over and out.

I want you now like I want you then,
Falling in love with you there is no win,
When you're not here I like to pretend
Because I really want you, really want you.