it wasn't worth it.
hector and i are not together anymore.
it's a really long story, but the above sentance is the main part. all the rest is just what happened and how he fucked me over. but you know what? it's okay. because this was a great learning experience for me. i have realized that i was correct before to not let anyone too close. i was correct when knowing that being in love is only for fairy tales. because i WAS in love. and it was fucking AMAZING. there is NO feeling like that. but having it taken away? for NO reason but the fact that he is selfish? it's not worth it. it's not worth it at all.
anyway. two weeks ago, the end of august, hector stopped talking to me. out of the blue. he left my house, and just ignored me everytime i tried to talk to him.
especially the day after, when he was supposed to help my mom build shit because she payed his car insurance and cell phone bill for him. over three hundred and fifty dollars.
over a week later, he texted me saying that he wanted a break.
not telling me what i did, just telling me i needed to leave him alone to think for a while.
WHATEVER DUDE.
yeah, of course im gonna try and talk to him, i saw him pretty much every day for four months.
how the fuck else am i supposed to respond?
anyway.
then, after a while, i realized he took our pictures off his myspace, and took me off his top.
alright, whatever.
fucked up, but whatever.
then, yesterday, i went on myspace.
my number one on my top is gone: hector.
so i went to his profile.
he deleted me.
i asked julia if he deleted her too.
yep.
then, i went over to my friends and she went on his profile.
what do i see on his page?
still in a relationship, probably didn't even change it.
wanna know why?
BECUASE HE ALREADY HAS ANOTHER GIRLFRIEND.
her picture is on her page.
mind you, we were on a break.
not breaking up, a break.
for a week or so before the break, he was texting someone nonstop. NONSTOP. someone named blink. PROBABLY her nickname.
btw, its a girl named brittany.
the girl i always thought he liked, and asked him about, and said he hated her?
YEAH.
her.
cool hector, smooth.
real smooth.
so finally i was like fuck this i need to talk to brent for real.
so my friend called him asking if he has a gf. he automatically asks if i'm with her. WOW, thats not a good sign...so then im like FUCK I NEED TO TALK TO HIM. so i talk to brent for hella long, im crying, telling him everything hector did to me, woompty woomp woomp.
then later, i go to hectors house to get my stuff.
my full intentions were to JUST get my stuff and go.
that's it.
but the whole family came out, saw me crying and it was a huge mess.
they're really sweet...i can tell they care.
which is very very hard to find now.
people don't care enough.
they do, but it's all about themselves.
but that's not the point.
so i go in his room and in his car and get everything i can find. he still has hella shit of mine, but whatever, it's cool, i'll get it.
so pretty much, he has another girlfriend, lied to me about everything, and is a selfish piece of shit.
dude, even one of his fucking family members said to me "if he doesn't care or love us, and we're his family, dont feel bad. because weve been here for his whole life" ARE YOU KIDDING ME? dude, that's FUCKED up. how can your whole family KNOW that you dont give a shit about them?
AT all.
AT all!
god dude...there's so much to say...
and it's helping so much to talk about it, but in the end, i just hope the new girl doesn't get fucked over like i did. i hope the girl after her doesn't. and the girl after, and the girl after. maybe he'll change. he probably won't, but hopefully he will. he's become everything he's hated. and i hate him now too. of course i still love him, i can't turn that off. even after everything he did to me, i can't. theres a part of me that still wants to be friends with him one day. maybe more if he changes. and that's the worst part. because how will i ever know he changed? ALL his friends thought he had changed as well. ALL of them. i did too.
when we were first first talking, like two years ago, he told me he didn't want to be with me because he didn't want to hurt me.
BULLSHIT, you fucked me over HELLA hard.
im flat on my fucking ass and i'm sure youre laughing about it with your friends. or maybe youre laughing by yourself, drunk off your ass because your new gf is busy and can't open her legs for you tonight.
but you know what?
i'm glad this happened to me.
it taught me a lot.
here's all the pictures of us, hopefully i'll read this whole post next time i start falling for someone, and remember what it's like.
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the tattoo he got for me.
aw, how sweet.
-________-
HAHAHHA
no wonder you have nightmares all the damn time you fucking crazy bitch.
oh, and btw, here's the update:
today he sent me hellllla texts, saying how he wants to be friends and how he loves me and misses me and he doesnt have a new gf, blahblahblah.
i messaged his new gf, to warn her about hector.
details, examples and proof were all included.
THEN, what do i see when i go on myspace when i get home?
no messages from this bitch.
cool, whatever, maybe she didn't get on.
go in my sent inbox, she read them.
HAHHA
whatever, get fucked over, i tried.
so THEN i go on her profile, to make sure she wenton.
and what do i see?
see the boy without the shirt on?
yeah, that's hector.
see the surrounding area?
yeah, thats my bathroom.
see the pajama bottoms?
yeah, those are my pajamas.
YEAH, YOU WEREN'T CHEATING ON ME, WHAT THE FUCK EVER DUDE.
and if you were wondering, this is what it says above his picture-
"hector: i love you with all my heart brittany. and always will. what we have is something special that no one else has or will ever accomplish. in this world of break ups and divorces, we will be the ones to never fall into that hole. we are for reals, and so is our love. we fit perfectly like music does to life. nothing can hurt us. nothing can stop us. we are forever bonded as one."
ahhahaha, like he never said that to me before.
it's a really long story, but the above sentance is the main part. all the rest is just what happened and how he fucked me over. but you know what? it's okay. because this was a great learning experience for me. i have realized that i was correct before to not let anyone too close. i was correct when knowing that being in love is only for fairy tales. because i WAS in love. and it was fucking AMAZING. there is NO feeling like that. but having it taken away? for NO reason but the fact that he is selfish? it's not worth it. it's not worth it at all.
anyway. two weeks ago, the end of august, hector stopped talking to me. out of the blue. he left my house, and just ignored me everytime i tried to talk to him.
especially the day after, when he was supposed to help my mom build shit because she payed his car insurance and cell phone bill for him. over three hundred and fifty dollars.
over a week later, he texted me saying that he wanted a break.
not telling me what i did, just telling me i needed to leave him alone to think for a while.
WHATEVER DUDE.
yeah, of course im gonna try and talk to him, i saw him pretty much every day for four months.
how the fuck else am i supposed to respond?
anyway.
then, after a while, i realized he took our pictures off his myspace, and took me off his top.
alright, whatever.
fucked up, but whatever.
then, yesterday, i went on myspace.
my number one on my top is gone: hector.
so i went to his profile.
he deleted me.
i asked julia if he deleted her too.
yep.
then, i went over to my friends and she went on his profile.
what do i see on his page?
still in a relationship, probably didn't even change it.
wanna know why?
BECUASE HE ALREADY HAS ANOTHER GIRLFRIEND.
her picture is on her page.
mind you, we were on a break.
not breaking up, a break.
for a week or so before the break, he was texting someone nonstop. NONSTOP. someone named blink. PROBABLY her nickname.
btw, its a girl named brittany.
the girl i always thought he liked, and asked him about, and said he hated her?
YEAH.
her.
cool hector, smooth.
real smooth.
so finally i was like fuck this i need to talk to brent for real.
so my friend called him asking if he has a gf. he automatically asks if i'm with her. WOW, thats not a good sign...so then im like FUCK I NEED TO TALK TO HIM. so i talk to brent for hella long, im crying, telling him everything hector did to me, woompty woomp woomp.
then later, i go to hectors house to get my stuff.
my full intentions were to JUST get my stuff and go.
that's it.
but the whole family came out, saw me crying and it was a huge mess.
they're really sweet...i can tell they care.
which is very very hard to find now.
people don't care enough.
they do, but it's all about themselves.
but that's not the point.
so i go in his room and in his car and get everything i can find. he still has hella shit of mine, but whatever, it's cool, i'll get it.
so pretty much, he has another girlfriend, lied to me about everything, and is a selfish piece of shit.
dude, even one of his fucking family members said to me "if he doesn't care or love us, and we're his family, dont feel bad. because weve been here for his whole life" ARE YOU KIDDING ME? dude, that's FUCKED up. how can your whole family KNOW that you dont give a shit about them?
AT all.
AT all!
god dude...there's so much to say...
and it's helping so much to talk about it, but in the end, i just hope the new girl doesn't get fucked over like i did. i hope the girl after her doesn't. and the girl after, and the girl after. maybe he'll change. he probably won't, but hopefully he will. he's become everything he's hated. and i hate him now too. of course i still love him, i can't turn that off. even after everything he did to me, i can't. theres a part of me that still wants to be friends with him one day. maybe more if he changes. and that's the worst part. because how will i ever know he changed? ALL his friends thought he had changed as well. ALL of them. i did too.
when we were first first talking, like two years ago, he told me he didn't want to be with me because he didn't want to hurt me.
BULLSHIT, you fucked me over HELLA hard.
im flat on my fucking ass and i'm sure youre laughing about it with your friends. or maybe youre laughing by yourself, drunk off your ass because your new gf is busy and can't open her legs for you tonight.
but you know what?
i'm glad this happened to me.
it taught me a lot.
here's all the pictures of us, hopefully i'll read this whole post next time i start falling for someone, and remember what it's like.
Click to view
^
|
|
the tattoo he got for me.
aw, how sweet.
-________-
HAHAHHA
no wonder you have nightmares all the damn time you fucking crazy bitch.
oh, and btw, here's the update:
today he sent me hellllla texts, saying how he wants to be friends and how he loves me and misses me and he doesnt have a new gf, blahblahblah.
i messaged his new gf, to warn her about hector.
details, examples and proof were all included.
THEN, what do i see when i go on myspace when i get home?
no messages from this bitch.
cool, whatever, maybe she didn't get on.
go in my sent inbox, she read them.
HAHHA
whatever, get fucked over, i tried.
so THEN i go on her profile, to make sure she wenton.
and what do i see?
see the boy without the shirt on?
yeah, that's hector.
see the surrounding area?
yeah, thats my bathroom.
see the pajama bottoms?
yeah, those are my pajamas.
YEAH, YOU WEREN'T CHEATING ON ME, WHAT THE FUCK EVER DUDE.
and if you were wondering, this is what it says above his picture-
"hector: i love you with all my heart brittany. and always will. what we have is something special that no one else has or will ever accomplish. in this world of break ups and divorces, we will be the ones to never fall into that hole. we are for reals, and so is our love. we fit perfectly like music does to life. nothing can hurt us. nothing can stop us. we are forever bonded as one."
ahhahaha, like he never said that to me before.